An A$AP Rocky Love Story

Kept secrets pt2

The Heartbreak coming soon

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Rakims P.O.V

I wanted to tell her sooner but me being in this gang will get her in trouble and she might get hurt and I want that happening.

Tamara- so why couldn't you just tell me ?

Me- because I just don't want you getting hurt

Tamara- how am I gonna get hurt ?

Me- just don't worry about it ok

When I said that the anger in my voice scared Tamara, I didn't wanna scare her but I was mad. Mad at the fact that this nigga shot me and I knew who it was and that I wanted to kill his ass but I needed Tamara's help.

Tamara- I'll just leave rakim

Me- I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you but I think you need to leave too

Tamara- ok I'll just see you tomorrow

Me- ok I love you

Tamara- I love you to

Tamara's P.O.V

I didn't know why he was mad at me but its whatever. I'll just go see my mom really quick and then go to Catherine's house. I walked around the block to go to my house, I was still a little bit scared after what happened yesterday. I saw rakims dried up blood on the floor and some police men investigating the crime scene. I walked in the house and saw my mom sniffing something of the table and then trying to cover it up when I asked her what he was doing she seemed jittery and she said nothing. Whatever she's been acting weird lately anyways. I just walked in my room and changed my clothes into some black basketball shorts a white cropped shirt and my bred 4s. When I was walking out of my room my mom didn't even say bye to me I don't know what the hell is wrong with her. I just took the bus to Catherine's house and when I was walking into her house I saw some man just watching me I didn't take it seriously because men were always watching me.

Catherine- I didn't know u was coming

Me- well now you know

Catherine- well how's rah

Me- he's fine but he told me he was in some gang and he said he didn't wanna tell me because he didn't want me getting hurt and when I asked him some more about it he got mad at me

Catherine- oh wow

Catherine was acting a little bit weird like she didn't wanna talk about it. Like she knew something I didn't know.

Me- what the hell is wrong with you, why are you acting like that cathy ?!

Catherine- because

Me- cathy, did you know !?

Catherine- yes I knew but he didn't want me to tell you because he didn't want you to know because ur dad is in his rival gang and he know you despise your dad and he didn't want you to be mad that he had anything to do with mel

She said it so fast I could barely even understand what she said all I heard was your dad

Me- repeat what you said about my dad again

Catherine- your dad is in rakims rival gang and he had something to do with him being shot

Me- but i thought he died in jail.... I gotta go I just need to think this all out, I'll see you later

I ran out of Catherine's house didn't even bother getting on the bus I just ran back home. Everytime I ran I just wished I could fly, fly alway from all the troubles out here in Harlem just be alone by myself, with no worries. I started approaching my brownstone and I saw something white on my steps, it looked like a paper. I got to me steps and there a paper that read

'You will die you're next"

The paper had blood splattered on it. I just picked up and ran in the house, my heart racing a mile a minute a tear dripping down my eye. I ran in my room and took off my shirt and sneakers which only left me with shorts and a bra on. My mother wasn't there of course, but I thought to myself how in the hell could my dad be involved in this. He's supposed to be in jail after raping somebody, for raping me

~flashback~

"Get out my damn room you ugly little bitch" my mom was yelling at me once again she didn't care about me all she did was mistreat me and my dad didn't do anything to help.

"I wish you was never born you slut ! I should of aborted ya ass when your dad told me to your the reason why he don't love me no more" my mom said to me

"You should of aborted me I rather be dead then be living in this earth with you I hate you !" She slapped me and punched me in the face for saying that. I cried and ran in my room and hid under my covers. I was only 10 I didn't deserve that. My dad got home and he told me I needed to get ready to go to bed. I was in the shower and once I got out I put on my clothes, but my shorts were inside out this time but u just put them on anyway. My dad walked in my room and said to me "your shorts are inside out let me fix them" I just said ok. He took my shorts of and began to touch me in a bad way. I was 10 I didn't know what he was doing I just knew it wasn't good. He began to rape me and I cryed in pain and told him to stop but he wouldn't.

~flashback ends~

Six years after my dad raping me and I still hate him for it. When this happened to me the only people I had was cathy, ferg and rah and they told and he got locked up for 15 years and its only been six and he's not even supposed to be out yet. I just need to talk to somebody about this. Ferg ! I haven't talked to him in forever. I just need somebody.