Hungry for Love

I want him back

Jonathan's POV;
It was morning and I don't remember anything I sat up and I felt my hand sting "ah shit.. What happened to my hand?...Wait where's Evan" I was expecting him to be beside me oh no..no..no..no.. I hope I didn't say anything to harsh to him fuck, I went into Evans room and he was still asleep, I saw his pillow was a little wet.. Oh fuck please tell me I didn't make him cry shit....It was all coming back to me, my face saddend as the realisation hit me.. "That's right...my c-cousin" I began to cry and headed back into my room I slammed the door shut and sat on my bed moments later my door opened. I lifted my head and Evan's bloodshot eyes were looking at me I burried my head in my hands "Hey, Jonathan" he sounded really innocent but I stayed silent "I'm going into town, do you need or want anything" I wanted to say something but I was just to depressed to speak I turned around my back facing Evan. There was silence for a while then I heard my door shut. I decided to get changed and head out, fuck Evan took the car. I went back inside and sat in my dark recording room hoping to take my mind of things I started to edit a few videos, my vision was fading in and out, I didn't want to sleep but I was knocked out and was sleeping on my chair.
Evans POV;
I shut Jonathan's door and went downstairs to eat, my head was hurting but so was my heart I just wanted to make Jonathan happy it's such a horrible thing what happened yesterday.I made two pieces of toast and pulled out of the driveway in the car.
--Time Pass--
I sat on a bench with some flowers and a giant teddy bear in my hand I planned to give them to Jon. My eye caught a keyring shop and I decided to get his gta5 mask made for him to put on his car keys. I placed the keyring on his key and headed back to the car placing the flowers and teddy on the front seat next to me. I walked in the house and headed upstairs to Jonathan's room he was no where to be seen my heart raced a little and I began searching for him, I found him sleeping in his chair. "Hey Jonathan" I shook him gently in the hopes to wake him up, when he finally did I gave him the flowers and the teddy. He had no reaction at first but seemed to show a small smile "Evan I'm sorry I yelled at you yesterday" his face showed no emotion and he was pale to his cheeks "it's okay.. Hey have you eaten yet?" "No I'm not hungry" he hadn't eaten since yesterday morning and I was getting worried for him. My mind went blank and I had no idea what to do, he broke the silence "hey will you put these in a vase for me" "sure" I walked over to him and placed a kiss on his forehead and took the flowers away he cuddled into his teddy "oh and I forgot I got you something today" I pulled out the car keys from my pocket and showed him the keyring. He took the keys from me and laughed. "Thanks Evan I really like it" I smiled and walked away. I placed the flowers on a case filled with clear water and placed them on the kitchen counter. I headed upstairs and sat on my bed I decided to call lui.
L- Hey Evan, what's up?
E- well I haven't told nobody yet but me and Jonathan are dating I would appreciate it if you didn't tell no one about it though at least not yet.
L- you have my word bro
E- also I was wondering if you would help me with something
L- sure anything
E- So Jon's cousin died yesterday and he was told to not go to the funeral because they didn't want anything to do with him, I want to cheer him up by throwing a thank you party at his house but I'm scared he won't appreciate it because of how scared he is to meet everyone.
L- look some people are shy at first but people become more confident after they are surrounded by people who can support him, I think it's a great idea, I'll ask the guys to Skype tomorrow is that okay?
E- yeah it's brilliant but tell them not not mention it to Jonathan I want it to be a supprise. Okay thanks lui speak to you tomorrow then
L- No problem, bye.
I put the phone down and headed downstairs. I listened to Jonathan on the other side of the door talking to himself
Jonathan's POV;
"I feel so bad for shouting at Evan yesterday but, My cousin was the person I was most closest with, he supported me through hate and bullying and helped me to get back on my feet, but no one is here to do that, no one can help me but mys- I was cut off by Evan slamming the door open, he walked toward me and picked me up cuddling me I wrapped my whole body around him and he was holding me so close to him "Jonathan I'm here for you, I'm here to help you get back up on your feet, there's never going to be a time that I'm not here for you" his voice cracked a few times and I could hear a few sobbs being made. "Evan I'm sorry I just never realised this whole thing as gotten to me so much and I just- I was cut off for the second time but this time not by words Evan held me closer and closer his lips connected with mine and he was about to walk upstairs "wait Evan my teddy!" He looked at me "I'm your teddy for now okay?" The thought made me giggle and we continued up the stairs he was still holding me close as he set me on his bed we cuddled up together just talking until I realised he was asleep. A few minutes pass and I couldn't bring myself to sleep I'dbeen sleeping almost all morning and I heard him mumble something it was faint but clear in my ears "I want you back Jonathan, I need you" I whispered in his ear "I'm right here and you will never loose me" I smiled and cuddled up closer to him resting my face in the dip of his neck.
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So Evan has a supprise party planned for Jonathan, do you think the guys will be up for it? Find out in the next chapter!