Ryan
I am shocked by his commitment.
I ask, "Why did you decide to finally really try to get a hold of me after Sarah officially left?"
Brendon says softly, "I figured I had nothing left to lose. I already lost you, once. What were you actually gonna do reject me, again? It wouldn't really have mattered if you did. So, it just felt like the right time."
"So, you weren't afraid?"
"Quite the opposite. I was terrified. I figured I might as well get it over with, and I knew I'd never get a better chance then right now."
"You acted as if your feelings went away. As if you never loved me. Why?"
"I thought you had given up on us. So I figured why bother continuing to love you if you were just going to hate me in the end!"
"I never hated you. I still don't. I regret you. I regret not fighting for you. I regret ever letting you go!"
"That's the both of us. Ry, I regret leaving you. I'm sorry, can we start over?"
"From hello?"
"Yes! Hello my name is Brendon Urie but you can call me Bren. What is your name?"
"My name is Ryan Ross but you can call me Ry if you would like."
I hold my hand out and he shakes it. His grip steady and firm.
