Tough Love (Xander + Spike)

It's Nothing

Spike sat downstairs in his crypt, on his unkempt bed, feeling down; He has been in love with Xander Harris for years and he still doesn't have the guts to tell him. Spike laid down on his bed and stared up at the ceiling.

"Why does everything have to be so bloody hard?" Spike muttered to himself.

A knock on the door upstairs made Spike bolt up. He got up and went for the ladder. He began climbing up when the door suddenly opened.

"Spike?" A voice called out.

Spike recognized the voice and quickly put on a shirt.

He climbed up the rest of the ladder and saw that beautiful face worn by Alexander Harris.

Spike giggled to himself as he took a couple steps in Xander's direction.

"Sun comes down and he appears.." He said jokingly with a smirk on his face.

"Oh, there you are." Xander responded with a sigh of relief as he approached Spike.

"Come to serenade me?"

Xander jokingly nodded his head.

Spike pulled out some vodka that was stuffed behind the television and offered it to the man.

"Drink?"

"Uh- no, no." Xander politely declined before taking a deep breath.

Spike disappointingly put it back behind the television and then looked back at Xander.

"I'm actually looking for Buffy" Xander revealed.

"Oh.. so that's all? You just came to pump me for information?" Spike asked with a bitter tone.

Xander looked Spike up and down questionably.

"Well.. you're kind of my little info-boy. Don't quote me on that!" Xander jokes in an attempt to lift Spike's mood a little. Spike silently sighed.

"Well, I don't know a thing. So you can hire another 'info-boy' to replace me!" Spike snapped at him.

"Hey! What happened to the whole 'Don't quote me on that' thing?"

"I said I don't know anything! So why don't you get the BLOODY HELL OUT!" Spike yelled at Xander out of rage.

"Woah! Calm down, Spike. I'm sorry if I got on your nerves." Xander tried to aplogize.

"I said.. GET THE HELL OUT!" Spike shouted back at him; Ignoring his apology.

Xander hesitantly turned around and walked out the door; As the door closed Spike formed his hand into a fist, and punched the wall to his right hard. He turned his back to the wall and started crying.

"I'm such a fucking idiot." 

He cried to himself as he slid down the wall and sat on the floor.

"I'm so dumb."

Spike's body jerked as he heard the door opening again. Xander entered the crypt again and saw Spike sitting on the floor. He slowly approached Spike and knelt down next to him.

"Spike, are you okay?" He asked him with a concerned look on his face.

"Yeah.. I'm fine. I'm sorry about how I acted." Spike said as he dried his tears away.

Xander slowly rubbed Spikes back up and down to comfort him.

"If you ever want to talk I'm here for you, okay?" He reassured Spike.

"Yeah, I know.."

"Xander, I-" Spike cut himself off before he could finish his own sentence.

"What?" The other man asked curiously.

"It's nothing."

END OF CHAPTER ONE