Astericks (*) indicate inspiration from a song. This one shot (that may turn into a story later hmm idk) is based on an album called Feel by Sleeping With Sirens. It just came out so please go and get it at target, best buy, hot topic, etc. Thank you for reading & maybe for your support of the band.
* - Alone
**- Low
***- Congratulations
****-Sorry
*****-Best There Ever Was
--JUSTINS POV--
I grabbed her wrist, "Where the fuck do you think you're going?" I spat at her. Her body was small and it wasn't hard for me to stop her. "How the fuck are you gonna leave me?* You're not going to throw this all away." **
"Throw what all away? We've done nothing the past 6 months. You've left me then taken me back, then do the same all over again, and I'm fucking done with it. I don't need this, I don't need you." Each word she spewed out felt like someone was ripping my heart out, throwing it on the floor and smashing it into pieces with a bat.
I loosened my grip on her tiny arm, and she yanked her hand away.
"This is it, I'm done with us," She said while shaking her head.
"No...wait... Jessica, please." I nearly begged, "Don't do this."
"Don't do what? Do exactly what you've done to me countless fucking times before? Stop it Justin! Stop!" She erupted in tears, but continued drilling holes into my heart effortlessly. "You're treating me like shit and I don't deserve this. I don't need this. I did everything to be yours, and you still didn't want me. You made me feel so low.** Don't expect me to come back. "
"Jessica...I..."
"Congrats, really. They say you're the man *** you know, using me then throwing me out like I'm nothing. It must be a great fucking game for you, but I don't think I want to play anymore."
"Jessica, stop it. Listen to me," I walked closer to her, but she backed up. "Please, listen to me. I love you, so much. Okay? Shh, don't cry anymore." I made my way up to her as I spoke, and wrapped my arms around her. She tried to push me me away, but I didn't let her.
"I'm not letting you go, again, I promise." I whispered into her ear, "I'm not going to risk that anymore. If you want the truth...I...the reason I left you was because I didn't know how I was supossed to feel. How the fuck do I meet such a fucking stunning girl and then have her be mine? You're everything I wanted and it's crazy but I only feel okay when I'm with you. * I don't know what to feel or how to feel and I'm sorry. I'm so so so sorry. I know I'm hard to love but I'm sorry for the things I've done and for how I treated you, but I can't let you go. I swear I'll be better than before, I promise. I can't let you go. ****."
She shoved away from me, and I let her go unwillingly.
"Don't fuck with me. I'm the best there ever was***** at detecting your little lies and I'm done with it."
I bit my lip and turned my head so she wouldn't have to see my world crumbling down. If thats how she really felt, I shouldn't be holding her back. I shouldn't be treating her like a piece of shit, just as she said it. I shouldn't have her. I don't deserve her. She deserves better than me.
I heard her scoff in disbelief at the fact that I had given up. Already.
"Fine." She defied. The next and last thing I heard was the slam of the screen door.
