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Chapter 5

A week later…

“Phoebe!” Autumn shouted barging in.

“Hello Autumn,” Zayn let out looking up from the couch.

“Hi Zayn, where’s Pheebs?” She asked.

“Kitchen,” He let out.

“Yes Autumn?” I let out smiling at her as she walked in.

“Guess what?” She smiled.

“What?” I let out putting the food in the oven.

“I’m pregnant,” Autumn let out.

I smiled at her with excitement and hugged her.

I was so happy for her, but there was some other feeling I had for this as well.

Jealousy

“I’m so happy for you,” I smiled at her.

“You already know what I’m going to ask you,” She smiled.

I looked at her confused.

“Will you be the godmother?” She asked.

I smiled and nodded.

She smiled and hugged me.

“Have you told Harry?” Zayn said leaning against the wall.

“I’m going to tonight, I had to tell Miss Phoebe first.” She smiled and hugged me tight.

I smiled and looked over at Zayn.

He smiled at me as Autumn said, “I have to go get dinner ready but I’ll call you in a bit,”

“Alright, talk then,” I said as I watched her go.

I leaned against the counter.

“You okay?” Zayn asked.

“of course,” I smiled at him.

He kissed me and wrapped his arms around my waist.

“When the time is right,” He let out quietly.

“I know,” I smiled.

That night…

I was sitting on the couch eating popcorn while Zayn was taking a shower upstairs.

I was flipping through channels and fell upon the TLC channel watching wedding dress shows and popping each piece of popcorn in my mouth one by one.

“Miss me?” I heard him say as he slipped next to me.

He smelt like old spice.

His hair was all wet. 

He was in just boxers.

“So much,” I let out smiling.

He grabbed some popcorn and pulled me into him.

“I’m going to take a shower,” I let out kissing him and getting up.

He grabbed the remote and smiled at me.

I turned the warm shower on and began peeling my clothes off.

I hopped in and closed the curtain.

As the warm water hit me, I thought about how I didn’t want this life anymore.

I didn’t want to live in fear of when he was going to leave again.

I didn’t want to live in fear of how if we had a baby, he might not be there to meet the baby.

I just began to worry.

That got me crying.

I washed my hair and body and got out.

I walked to the room wrapped in the towel and locked the door behind me.

I wrapped my hair up in the towel and wiped my face from the tears.

I stood in front of the mirror for a few seconds looking myself up and down.

I sighed and began to get dressed.

I unlocked the door and blow dried my hair straight and walked downstairs and sat by Zayn.

We were watching some movie.

I sat there with my arms around my legs.

I wasn’t paying attention.

I was thinking.

I hadn’t seen my family in a year, I was beginning to feel it all hit me now.

“You sure you’re okay?” He asked.

“Yeah, I’m fine.” I said smiling at him.

“Pheebs, don’t lie to me.” He said.

I looked at the TV.

“What is it?” He asked.

“I just miss my parents, I haven’t seen them in a while.” I let out.

“You can go visit them if you want,” He said pulling me close.

“Are you sure?” I asked.

“Yeah, I would go but I don’t have any vacation time.” He said kissing me.

“Thank you,” I let out smiling at him.

“Are you sure that’s all?” He asked.

I smiled and nodded, I didn’t want to argue about the whole being scared of when he’s going to leave again.

“Good,” He let out kissing me and caressing my back.