he's my bad boy (sequel to my bad boy saved me)

part 2 :undefeated past.

song for this chapter

justin bieber - sorry

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Maya's p.o.v.

when i was told someone was at the door to see me, i thought it was someone like the pizza delivery guy that i didn't give tip to two days ago, i thought he probably brought his manger to teach me a lesson, but when i saw the women the once showed me nothing but hate, my whole world turned upside down, the women who told me i was not capable of being loved each and everyday, the women that brought me to this world but never once showed me kindness or love, the women i claimed to be my mother but never show that she was my mother, the women that broke me, the women that left me to drown in my own sorrow, left me fighting for myself in this world, there she stood, in front of me.

"mom?", i said not knowing what else to say in that moment, why was i calling her my mother?, she was never my mother, or at least is what she said.

"maya", she breath out with a sad smile, i could see tears forming in the Conner of her eyes, "riley?".

my gaze went on riley who now had her mouth hang open, and with that i look back at my long lost mother.

"what are you doing here?", i asked in a horsey voice.

"i came to apologize", she replayed.

a thick, sarcastic laughed escape my lips, "is this some kind of joke?, because you know damn well, there will be no apology you will be making that will make me forgive you for everything you put me through".

the angry I've been holding in was now suddenly starting to show, how dare she shows up here and had the nerve to tell me she came to apologize?, all these years, i had to live with scars, i can't even wear swimsuit without feeling exposed and ugly, i can't be shirtless around my friends without feeling worthless, and those horrifying memories was forever going to hunt me.

"wow, you grew into such a beautiful young women", she complemented.

"funny", i laughed, "because i can't help but remember you saying i was the ugliest thing you have ever seen mother", i snapped, her face heated with embarrassment.

"maya-", Lucas started saying but i cut him off.

"don't you dare", i pulled my body from against his finally letting the tears come, "don't you dare defend her lucas, this women destroyed me since i can remember, she made me starve, she made me question my worth of being on this earth, she made me feel worthless, depressed, lonely, unloved, and all i saw in life was black and white, i cried every single night, i cut through my skin and she knew but it was all a big joke to her, i was nothing but a joke to her", more tears were rolling down my cheek, but i couldn't miss that heartbroken look on all of their faces, especially my mother, "every single day i blamed myself for people hatred towards me, i asked, plead and begged god to just take me, I tried so hard to take my life away, I was tired of feeling like a nothing, i was tired of living in dark shadows, i was tired of feeling cold, numb, lonely and worthless, i was tired of being broken, i was tired of looking for space on my arms to cut, i was tired of knowing no one was every going to love me, i was tired-", before the last world could slip out, i broke down on the floor crying in the palms of my hands.

why did she had to come back in my life?, why did she had to make me show that same maya that was fighting to come out?, the broken Maya, that Maya that thought the world was out to get her, that maya that lucas once tried to get rid off, why is everything i thought i left in the past sunddnely coming back in the lights of my eyes, coming back to once again to destroy me, and i couldn't do a thing about it, first missy and now my mother.