She's My Roomate

Nothing Was The Same.

Siya.

I know her death wasn't my fault ,I just can't bring myself to accept that she was gone.

As crazy as she was, she was there for me, even when I pushed her past her limits .

She was loyal beyond measures and now if I need someone to vent to, I have nobody.

I'm here for you if you need me

Aysias word repeated in my head .
Could I trust her ?

Even if I could, I didn't want to burden her with all of my thoughts and emotions .

She was entirely too busy.
Now.

"Are you okay?"
I looked to see Lo staring at me with concerning eyes and I honestly was tired of seeing them.

"I'm fine, damn. Leave me alone?"
I cringed at the thought of somebody truly giving a care about me.

"Don't be rude nigga, I was just concerned about you , you look dead."

Lo scoffed and I was about two point three seconds away from snapping on her.

"I am dead." "Might as well be"

She didn't reply , she just stared at me trying to figure me out.
I laughed .

"Bitch stop trying."

Oje.

"Stooooooopppp , thats my bear that helps me sleep at night".

I was currently sitting in Aysias childish room and couldn't help but to laugh at this huge teddy bear she had sitting in the corner of her room.

Little creepy fuck.

"How does that huge thing allow you to even breathe at night , creepy ass bear"

"Oooh I know"
I said grinding air, mocking something I think Aysia would do.

"Eww , your nasty".
She smiled , tossing the pillow at me.

"I can be nastier to you"
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You could hear a pen drop.

Joyce.

"Hi Joyce Stevens, you will be rooming with Loren Sanders who is currently in class, and again , thank you for choosing this college. I hope you enjoy your stay."

I nodded at the dorm advisory.
I made my promise at Kaydies grave and I mean to keep it.