My only one 》a.g

Chapter 4

Shadi P.O.V

Yes, i go back to my house. Run to my room grab a razor and start cutting my wrist..again. It's not hurt tough well i'm stressed okay? i'm crying when i do that, and suddenly my phone ringing. When i see the ID it was alex, i know he's gonna searching for me..of course he's searching for me, i'm gone since 9am till 12pm. I press the green button then said.

"yes? hello darling"

"hey, where are you? it's time for me to get lunch..are you crying??" he said panic.

"what time is it? i'm sorry hun, and i'm not crying..i'm just sneezing" i fake laugh.

"it's 12pm shad, can you come here please?"

"oh okay, i'm on my way. goodbye, mwah"

"goodbye see you here! love you"

That's it. My wrist still bleeding and fuck there's no tissue in this big house?? damn. As i wash the blood, and i wrapped it with my towel, the bleeding stop but the scars didn't fade away. i forced to wear long sleeve t-shirt. As i get there, i find out that alex is waiting for me. When he saw me he smiled.

Alex P.O.V

She's finally here. I smiled to her and she smiled back. But she faked her smile, don't ask why i know it. She sit next to me, we're in silence for a few minute till she said.

"you hungry?"

"yes i am. You can see that my food isn't being eat yet" i pouts.

"do not pouting..fine here, you must eat. come on" she give me a spoon of soup.

"hmmm yummy it's a nice soup mummy shadi!!" i joke.

"so you like the soup baby alex?? here i give you more okay??" she said joking back.

"okay mummy shadii!" i said while she give me another spoon of soup "hey babe..when is the funeral begin?" i said again.

"at 3pm i thought, you're in right?"

"yes i come"

"hmm i have to wash my hand you see the soup is trying to eat my hand!!" she said laughing.

"okay babe" then she folding her sleeve..and yes i already thought that she do it again..cut. damn it why she do that again huh?

Shadi P.O.V

Am i that stupid? i'm folding my sleeve in front of him, he'll see my scars..and yes i think he already know it. Shit. After i wash my hand, i go back to alex and yes he ask me why i start cutting again. So i tell him that i'm stressed out, i'm sobbing now. Freak i never let anyone know i'm this weak. It's already 2pm i have to get going to dress up and go to the funeral. When i'm on my way to the door i meet dan, he said he'll dress up alex, so i just nod and leave. I drive fastly to my house, get dressed then set my hair to a ponytail style. After i'm ready, i drive to the graveyard. Everyone is already there, except one..alex. But dan is already here, where is he?? I mean he already promise me that he'll come, so i ask dan where's alex. Dan said he'll talk about alex later, he said we have to focus on the funeral first. Me and my mom cry as the crate is being buried. After the funeral, i immediately ask dan where's alex is.

"dan, please tell me where's alex?? I'm on a panic mode okay! Just tell me!" i almost scream till everyone is looking at us.

" alex..he..he can't come shad, he's passed out when we want to go from the hospital. And now the doctor take after him" he said.

"what?! Passed out?! Why? What happen? You must be kidding me right?" i cry while running to the car and leaving everyone.

When i already at the hospital, i'm running to alex room..and it was silent. None doctor or a nurse..i see alex laying on the bad peacefully, thanks god he still alive. But his face is so pale, geez what happen to him? He used to be okay this morning..i take a sit next to him, i rub his hair gently. After a few minutes, i need to find a coffee so i want to go to the cafe. When i stand up and wanted to leave, i felt someone grab my hand. Then a weak voice said.

"hey, where are you going?" he smiles. Weak smiles.

"hey handsome, what happen? I just wanted to buy a coffee but i think i don't need it anymore" i smile back.

Alex P.O.V

I know she sit by my side for a few minutes. Well i'm not passed out duh, i'm just pretending i'm sick. You know..a surprise?

"hey handsome, what happen? I just wanted to buy a coffee but i think i don't need it anymore" she smile back.

"i don't know i felt dizzy then all become blurry and black"

"but you're fine now right?"

"yes i'm fine..ehm darling, you want to accompany me to the cafe? I wanted coffee so bad, just like you"

"of course darling, wait i take the wheelchair" after she take the wheelchair, i sit on it and we walk to the cafe. After we get there i ask her to order me hot coffee and i wait at the table. When he queue and busy..i walk off the cafe to my room and change outfit. And drive to park that not too far from the hospital. I'm already okay tough, doctor said i can go home tomorrow.

Shadi P.O.V

I was queue for our order when i realize there's no alex on the wheelchair. I'm panic. Really panic. What if jeremy run off the police station and come to kill alex? I immediately run to his room but there's no one there! I called him but he never answered. I search for my car key but again my car key is missing! Geez please where's him!!! I call dan and he said he didn't know where alex is, i call mom and of course she didn't answer. I sit on his bed for a few seconds till i got message from him. It said.

"hey, panic from searching me?? It's okay, i'm fine can you go to the park? Now? Please!! -lex :)xx"

Dammit. He is sick and drove to park?? Stubborn boy. After recieve the text i walk to the park, but it's already dark and hard to find him..i want to sit on a bench when suddenly someone close my eyes from behind.

"GUESS!!" he screamed.

"alex please, i know it's you!" i said while he release his hand.

"ahh you win shad" he pouts.

"hey baby lex, what are you doin here?! You are sick remember?!?!"

"well do not panic. I'm not sick tough i'm just pretending cause i want to give you a surprise!" he give me blindfold and i wear it.

He led me to somewhere i don't know but i'm sure we're still in the park. It's take a long time to get to our destination, finally he told me to take off the bilndfold. When i take off the blindfold..we're at the fountain, a beautiful fountain..

Alex P.O.V

I know she mesmerized at the fountain, the fountain is decorated by so many flowers and at the floor tile it read "surprise" i don't know i don't have any idea for the words.

"what do you think?" i ask.

"it's very very awesome..i mean how could you to this?"

"i have connections" winked.

I turn on the radio and played just the way you are by bruno mars. I know she shock when i played that song cause probably i can't be romantic..yea you know..rocker boys and romance song..nah not really connected. We dance in front of the fountain to the rhythm of the song, suddenly rain poured and we all get wet. But i don't care and i lean in and our lips is meet one another, i love this feeling it feels like the first time we kiss this butterfly still like to flying around my stomach. We keep dancing till we get tired and we laying on the wet grass as the rain still pouring above us. We still like that till i feel shadi shivering.

"hey you shivering, let's get back home" i said

"okay, i'm tired too, and thanks for all of this lex..i love you so much" she said then kissed me again.

And we go back to the house, change clothes. We are real tired. And it's already 9pm. Tomorrow i'm gonna back to the hospital for checking out and yes. Shadi is already on the bed cover her body with blanket and i crawled too, covering my body with blanket, i already half asleep till i heard shadi said "i love you so much gaskarth" then i said "me too mrs. Gaskarth" then kiss her forehead. After that, i'm just close my eyes and fall asleep.