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His Needs

11/17/2015

                                                          His Needs 

"Y'all did what?" Nikki yelled as I shut the door to my office.

"We kissed." I let out a deep breath as I paced back and fourth. My mind was racing a mile a minute questioning what we did. Why did I kiss him, knowing i'm not good enough for him. Why am I trying to move foreword when my mind is going back words. 

"With your tongue? Was it good?" 

I bit my bottom lip and smiled. "Yes and really good." 

"Than what's the problem?"

I sat down at my desk and held my head in my hands. "The problem is, Cain is too good for me. I'm not ready for a relationship of any kind right now. Heck I don't know if I ever will be."

"Don't say that Symphony. That man is bringing some of the old you back out and I for one am grateful for it. He's not him, he's not that nightmare you have at night."

"No he's not." I leaned my head back I had twenty minutes until my next class. "It's the nightmares that are keeping me away from him."

"Hey." Cain poked his head in my office.

"Hey Cain." Nikki smiled getting up out of her set. "How was your morning?" 

"Good." He replied raising his eyebrow at her.

"I hope it stays that way." She glared at me as she walked out of my office shutting the door behind her.

"What's up with her?" Cain asked walking over to me. He sat down on the edge of my desk and stroked my face. I turned my head and moved from his touch. "Okay." He stood watching me. "What's up?"

"Nothing, I have a class, I need to get ready for." I walked to the other side of the room. He was to close and he smelled so good. But being involved with Cain was to dangerous to my mental health. I wanted his touch, but I was also scared of it. I craved his kisses but I also know that one day, they will not be enough. He's going to want a normal relationship and I'm far from normal.

"Your lying. What are you over thinking about?" He walked closer to me making me lean against the wall. He placed his hands on the wall caging me in. 

"Nothing." I was starting to feel Cloister phobic. The room all of Sutton felt hot and the air was being sucked out of my lungs. I needed to get away from him, before I give in. Putting my hands on his chest I immediately  regretted it, Cain's hard chest felt so good under my hands.  His hands moved to my waist and he leaned in. "No, Cain." He stopped and looked at me and I felt ashamed for  pushing him away. He brought his hands up and moved back from me, I turned my head  not wanting to see the disappointed look on his face.

"Symphony, Baby i'm sorry."

"No, i'm sorry. I gave you the wrong Ideal and what your looking for I just can't provide it."

"What are you talking about?"

"Your needs."

He smiled at me and than crossed his arms over his chest. "Oh really, and what exactly are my needs?"

"The need to be physical."

"Symp I would never rush you to do something your not ready for."

I knew this already. "I know Cain." I played with the bandage on my ring finger. After I got out of the shower this morning I looked down at the burnt ring around my finger. No matter how hard I scrubbed it, this thing will always be here and so will the memories of the night.