Poems Or Just Some Thoughts I'm Thinking

Beat And Lyrics

It's like he is the beat of music and I'm the strange overthinking part of the lyrics. Just trying to forget something - thinking about love, hate, passion, friends, fun, problems, mistakes, myself, past, present and future. There are so many things going through my mind everytime. Over and over again. I can't even talk anymore. It's like the thoughts on my mind are too much. And I'm too much. Too much, that the result of it, is not being enough.

The most would say, if they fell in love, it's like their heart starts beating everytime they think of that one person. But isn't love different? Isn't love not just this one moment, when you realize them walking into a room, smiling at you with that unbelievably amazing eyes and smile on their face? Is love really just talking to someone and knowing, that he's the right one? Isn't love something else? What is love?
I saw him smiling at me and I'm glad of everytime he did. I think I'm not that special to him. I'm thinking this because I never felt something, which felt that real and unreal. I just want from him to say that these moments were real and that he felt the same thing or maybe we should just run. Run away from love. It would destroy us. It really would but the problem is:

Would that change the fact that I'm destroyed and full of unknown, hilarious thoughts anyways?

I can't even think anymore. I'm so fucking lost right now and I'm so sick of hoping for shit like that. In the end, everyone's lost and it doesn't matter anymore, what we did or who we used to know or be friends with or.. love.