Her Diary

Her Diary- 79 (Memory2/Part 3)

Kathryn's POV

I'm currently packing up my things right now. We're going back home. Our vacation here in Hawaii is over.

This was the worst vacation I've ever had. DJ and I haven't talked for the rest of the vacation because I just kept on ignoring him; I kept pushing him away.

I even changed my hotel room. Yup, I transferred to another room. I just don't think I can sleep in the same room as DJ. Our parents were curious at first but I kept telling them that it was just personal reasons. I didn't want to tell them what really happened cause I know that things would just get even more complicated.

*ding dong* (door bell)

I walked up to the door and opened it.

"Hey sweetie. You ready?" My mom asked.

"Yeah, all my things are packed." I answered.

"Well that's good. Now come on, get your things. They're all waiting for us downstairs at the lobby."

I nodded and got got my luggage.

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When we got to to the lobby everyone was already there. My parents, Camille, Lexi, their parents, and . . . DJ.

He saw me and our eyes were locked together.

When I looked in his eyes I could see sadness, pain, frustration, just so many emotions going on. My heart just started beating fast and I quickly looked away.

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DJ's POV

Our eyes were locked together until she quickly looked away. *sigh*

She's been ignoring me these past few days. Whenever I try to talk to her she just walks away or pretends she doesn't hear me. And honestly, it hurts; it hurts to be ignored or invisible by someone so important to you.

Right now besides my mom and my sisters, Kathryn's the most important girl to me. She's my bestfriend. She's always been there for me. This is the first time she's made me feel invisible. I guess this is what she felt when I made her feel like she was invisible to me.

I know she's not talking to me because of what happened; because she she told me that she loves me. Even I'm confused and frustrated but I know that we can work this out together; that we can make it through as long as we're together. She's my bestfriend and I don't want to lose her.

"DJ, come on. Let's go." My mom said.

"Huh? I'm sorry, what?" I asked, coming back into reality.

"I said let's go. The cabs are here." She repeated.

I nodded and got my stuff.

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After an hour or so we finally got to the airport.

I got my luggage and started helping my sisters in getting their things.

"DJ, why don't you go and help Kathryn. She seems like she needs help." My mom pointed at Kathryn.

"No, it's okay auntie Jude. I'm fine." Kathryn shook her head and smiled.

"No, no. DJ go help Kathryn." My mom commanded.

I nodded and walked up to Kathryn. Wow, this is the closest I got to her ever since.

I was about to get her luggage until she spoke up.

"No, it's okay I got it." She told me.

"No, Kath. I got it. I'm your bestfriend. I'm always here for you."

I then got her luggage and helped her. She didn't talk anymore and she just carried her other stuff.

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Kathryn's POV

'I'm your bestfriend. I'm always here for you.'

'I'm your bestfriend. I'm always here for you.'

The things that DJ told me at the airport kept playing back at head over and over again. We're back home and until now; from the airport, back home, DJ's words haven't left my mind.

Yes, he's my bestfriend, yes, he's always there for me but, now, now I'm not sure if we could bring our friendship back like the way it was before.

I was so stupid for telling him that I loved him. I should've controlled myself, my emotions. Its just that at that moment I felt like I couldn't hide my feelings anymore.

I didn't notice but my tears started falling and my mom was standing in front of my room.

"Mom! What are you doing here?" I asked while wiping my tears.

"I came here to see if you were alright, but I guess you're not."

"What? No, mom. I'm alright." I tried to smile.

"Sweetie, I'm your mother. I can tell when you're lying. Now come on. What's the problem?" She asked and sat down beside me on my bed.

"It's just that. . . it's just that I'm in love with my bestfriend mom." I started crying.

She seemed shocked  at first.

"Ooh, sweetie it's okay." She hugged me.

"No, it's not mom. I'm in l-love with DJ. And these *sobs* feelings are are going to ruin *sobs* our f-friendship. I-I don't w-want to l-lose DJ."

"Kathryn, I know it's hard but, honey there's nothing we can do about it. I guess all I can say is that it's just how love works. With love there comes pain. You just have to stay strong. And honey you and DJ will always be friends, bestfriends. You two have been through so much together. Now, stop crying. Just go and rest first. Okay?"

I nodded and she kissed my forehead.

After that I laid on my bed and slept.

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DJ's POV

Right now I'm laying down on my bed, with my hands behind my head, while I'm facing the ceiling.

When am I gonna get to talk to Kathryn. We need to work things out.

I know it might get awkward, but the situation is just gonna get worse if we don't talk.

It's just that I'm afraid to lose Kathryn. Like I always want to keep her by my side. Like I never want to let her go. Oh I don't know! All I know is that she's important. . . No scratch that. She's REALLY important to me and don't want to lose her. . .ever. Not today, not tomorrow, not the day after that, not EVER.

I. . . I love her. . . . . like a sister. She's not just my bestfriend, it's like she's a sister to me.