Love in La Push

Right and Wrong

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Jacob's P.O.V

"Hahahaha, that was a great movie!" Edward laughed putting his arm around my shoulders. I couldn't help but smile as we got into my car and started driving home. It was a late friday night and Edward and I had had a great time hanging out.

We were driving through the dark forest, when I started feeling weird. I stopped the car and got out on the empty road clutching my stomach. I heard Edward's faint voice asking if I was okay. All I could think about was the heat boiling in my stomach and the pounding in my head. I felt Edward's hand on my shoulder and I flinched back trying to get away from him.

"Stay.....Away." I managed to get out through the haze of my mind. I had to get away from Edward before I phased into a wolf. I backed away, trying to get into the woods but Edward followed me, and I couldn't get far with the pain I was in now.

"Jake, please talk to me! What's going on?!" Edward's voice was pained and I winced when I realised that I was the cause of it. My mind was getting blurry and I felt the familiar sensation of needles prickling my skin. "Nghhh!" I groaned out, feeling my skeleton changing as I phased. The last thing I saw was Edward's terrified face before I was overrun by rage.

I was on my knees, hands shaking when I held Edwards limp body. I was covered in blood. His blood. Edwards breath was shallow as he tried staying awake, with the wounds he was suffering from. Wounds I inflicted. Tears dripped down from my eyes and landed on his cheeks. A deep gash was on his temple and claw marks were all over his body. Blood sipped from the corners of his mouth as his hair lay damp against his head. He was trembling trying to breath, eyes wide and scared.

I held him against me as I sobbed rocking him back and forth. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Edward. Please forgive me, I didn't mean to!" I felt something slide over my back and I looked up meeting Edwards brown eyes. He was staring at me calmly and gave me a weak smile.

"It's...okay......Jacob. ..I'm not.....mad...at..you. I for...give you." I watched as his eyes slowly drifted close. "No...No Edward!!! Please, don't leave me!!!!" I cried, shaking him, trying to get him to stay awake. But it was too late. He's gone, and it's my fault. My scream echoed in the night.

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I woke up screaming with tears running down my cheeks. I was drenched in sweat and the bedsheets were clinging to my body. I heard a thump and running before Bells slammed open my door. She took one look at my terrified face and suddenly I was enveloped in a warm hug, as Bells rocked me back and forth comforting me as I calmed down. After awhile she pulled back and looked me deep in the eyes.

"Jacob," she said, with a serious voice she hardly ever uses around me, "Tell me what's wrong. If you just tell me, we can talk things through. Maybe I can help you Jake."

I knew I couldn't hide it anymore. I needed to share this with someone. And Bella is my best option. I nodded slowly, sitting up straighter in my bed. Bella sat more comfortably and nodded for me to talk.

"A few weeks ago, before our change I became friends with this guy in school. He and I hit it off great and we became close friends. But then I changed. After Sam told me about what happened with Emily, I just couldn't keep exposing him to danger. Sam hurt Emily, the person he cares about most. What if I hurt him?! What if I can't control myself and ki....ki....!" I swallowed loudly and whispered at last; "kill him."

Bells looked at me, with sad eyes. "Is that what your nightmare was about?" she asked with a kind, caring voice. I nodded swallowing again. She leaned in and hugged me, and I clung to her as if she was my last lifeline.

"You know, even if we have changed, into something more dangerous than before, doesn't mean we have to cut all ties with normal people. Trust yourself. You know best when you feel like phasing, so make sure you phase on a safe distant from everyone. Besides, you are a natural at controlling your wolf, you'll have no problem telling him to not harm anyone."

Bella smiled at me and I couldn't help but give a laugh in return. I wiped away the last remains of my tears and smiled at her. "Thanks Bells" I said and kissed her cheek.

"Well, if you feel better now, i'll head off to bed" she said yawning. She walked over to the door and turned to me one last time before closing it, "You should too. It's a new day tomorrow, and you have a friend to talk to". I gave her a smile which she returned, and then I laid back in bed falling back asleep.

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Edward's P.O.V

I didn't know what was wrong with me. Ever since yesterday, I couldn't stop thinking about Jake. I couldn't understand why he just decided to dump me. I winced at the thought of what happened yesterday. As I made my way through the halls of students I felt a hand grab my wrist, stopping me from going any further. When I turned around, I was met with the same face that's been on my mind for the last 24h. Jake.

I immediately froze, just staring at him. What does he want? I searched his face for answers, but all I saw was nervousness, sadness, despair and a faint glint of hope. My face hardened. I wouldn't let him see how much his presence hurt me.

"What do you want, Black?" I spat out, my voice cold and hard. Jacob flinched and his eyes glazed over almost as if crying. His hand moved from my wrist and flopped to his side. I could see his adam's apple bob when he swallowed, and when he spoke it was with a quiet, uncertain tone.

"Can...Can I t-talk to you...for a minute?" I watched him, his eyes flickering everywhere but me. He looked so ashamed and small, I couldn't help but take pity on him and nod tentatively. I saw a smile flash across his features before he nodded in the direction of an empty classroom where he then led me in.

The door closed behind us and I turned to Jacob. He was wringing his hands and looking down on the floor. When he looked up, his dark eyes were determined.

Jacob's P.O.V

I can't describe what I was feeling when I met Edward's eyes. Pain, sadness, guilt, anger, happiness, it was all a turmoil inside of me. Pain, because he looked at me so coldly, more cold than ever before. Sadness, because I'm not sure I can fix things between us, which I'm desperately hoping for. Guilt and anger, for the pain I'm sure I caused him, the pain I can see behind his mask of indifference.

I took a deep breath before saying what I had practised the whole drive to school.

"I'm sorry" I said taking a step towards him. Edward stopped me before I got close and shaked his head while looking at the ground. When he looked up again I could see a fake smile on his face.

"For what?" He asked, and I winced at the tone of his voice. It hurt, but I had to explain to him, at least somewhat.

"Look" I said "I wish I could explain, but I literally...can't." I looked at him with pleading eyes, begging for him to understand. "Have you ever had a secret? One you couldn't tell anyone? One that wasn't yours to share?" He shrugged, frowning at me a little.

"Well, that's what it's like for me. But worse". I could see that he was loosening up, but I didn't stop explaining. "You have no idea, how tight I'm bound."

He looked away, and when he looked back his eyes were filled with sadness. He stepped closer to me and enveloped me in a hug. I hugged him back, hard, not wanting to let go.

"It's okay. Just please....can we still be friends? I don't want to lose you". His unsure voice sounding in my ear made my heart quiver. I was so mean to him, and he accepted me back just like that. I hugged him even tighter, not caring about the strange sickly sweet smell surrounding him.

"Yeah-" I said "-we can still be friends, that's all I want." 

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