[[The Reasoning For Both The Title And The Song;
I Was Sorting Through The Playlist On My Computer Out Of Boredom At 11:45 Pm, Which Is Nothing New For Me, And Stumbled Upon This Song. I Honestly Love This Song, But I Have No Memory Of Downloading It At All. I Sat There And Pressed The Play Button, Listening To It When I Was Just Struck By Something In Both The Lyrics And The Melody That I Hadn't Known Before, Even If I Have Been Listening To This Band, Which Actually Started Out From A Town Very Close To My Own, For Years. The Feeling Behind This Song, The Memories It Can Dig Up, The Emotions It Can Reveal... Then, Out Of The Blue, I Started Crying. I Couldn't Think Of Any Reason Why, But I Just Did. And Its Kinda Weird For Me, Considering I Never Cry... Ever. It Made Me Smile Anyway, Even If I Was Crying Like A Newborn Baby... The Happiness Even There Through The Situation... Anywhoo, Enough With My Mooshy, Emotional Ranting (Which, Again, Is Weird As Hell For Me) Su You Can Read My Cruddy-As-Ever Poetry.
(Warning: Mooshy Joy Is Not Usual For Me, Su This Could Be Sad... Well, It Is For Normal Joy After Reading Through It In Da Morning... ) Anyway, ENJOY~ <3 ]]
'Its Something Unpredictable...'
I Stand There Solemnly, Looking Over The Freshly Dug Soil In Front Of Me.
My Figure Stands, Black Like A Dark Etching Against The Bright Sunshine Flowing Down On The Church's Grounds Like A Rich Honey.
The Stark Contract Casts A Shadow Over The Slab Of Stone As My Gaze Centers On The Wording Engraved.
I Read The Words Over And Over, The Crowd Of Familiar Silhouettes Standing Behind He As I Delve My Digits Into The Pile Of Disturbed Earth.
I Lift My Hand, Letting The The Land Shift To The Center Of My Now Soiled Palm.
I Take Tentative Steps Towards The Edge Of The Rectangular Pit, The Bottom Somehow Seeming Both Cavernous And Suffocating At The Same Time.
I Crush The Small Lump, Gently Whispering One Last Prayer Of Goodbye Before Tossing It Atop The Glossy Casket.
I Turn Around, Holding In My Pleas To Bring Her Back
I Graze My Sight Over The Small Cluster Of Dark Clothed Frames.
Listening To A Child's Sobs Being Muffled By Her Father's Sturdy Shoulder.
Watching The Tears Of Those Trying To Be Strong Flowing Freely Like A Stream.
Staring At Those In The Rear Whose Eyes Are Just As Seemingly Void Of Emotion As My Own.
I Walk Through The Center, Weaving Through The Mass Of Bodies In Silence.
I Open The Door To My Truck, The Familiar Creak In The Hinge Apparent.
Without Warning, I Felt The Foreign And Forgotten Burning Behind My Eyes.
I Close My Eyes Tightly And Turn The Car On, Immediately Igniting The Radio.
The Familiar Guitar Melody Of 'Time Of Your Life' Emanates From My Speakers.
A Small, Rolling Drop Of Warmth Flows Down My Cheek.
I Reach Up To Wipe It Away, My Vision Distorted By The Pooling Saltwater.
Soon Sobs Wrack My Body As I Pull My Knees Up Onto The Seat, Tucking Them Into My Chest.
The Music Continues To Play Even Over My Howls Of Sudden Denial.
As The Final Note Dissipates, My Sobbing Has Faded To Quiet Whimpers And Sniffling Being Muffled By My Sleeve.
I Let Out A Shaky Laugh, It Being Barely Audible Even In The Piercing Silence.
'I Hope You Had The Time Of Your Life...' I Speak, Not Loud Enough To Be Claimed As A Whisper.
The Corners Of My Lips Form Into A Sad Smile As I Gaze Through My Window Into The Blinding Brightness.
The Warm Air Is Flecked With Minuscule Particles Of Dust And Pollen, Constantly Disturbed My The Gentle Breeze That I Hadn't Noticed Before.
I Sat There Through The Rest Of The Ceremony, Watching The Small Movements Of The Nature Around Me.
I Was Still There As The Crowds Filed Into Their Variety Of Cars And Drove Away.
I Was Even Still There As The Red-Orange Sun Nestled Into The Part Of The Mountains In The Distance.
I Was There When The Sky Turned As Dark As My Own Clothing And Made A Home For The Masses Of White Stars And Purple Tinges.
And That Same, Saddened Smile Never Faded Or Departed From My Features.
Written By Makaila B.
11/18/15-11/19/15
(I Wrote It Through Midnight... GU TO SLEEP, MOOSHY.)
