The Vacuum

I will not allow myself to go back to this.

This being that point in my life, lightyears away, when the highlight of my day was you. But guess what?

I am far beyond that point.

I am galaxies away, stranger.

However, today I discovered that being galaxies away doesn't stop the pain searing in my chest when I think of you. Vacuum cannot stop the sound of thoughts racing through my mind. Scientists said we'd never reach the speed of light.

Albert Einstein himself doubted the matter. I know it isn't my place to question a mind like his but for the first time in my life, I am certain about something: he was wrong.

You see, stranger, my thoughts of you race at a speed far greater than that of light. In merely a second, my dear, I have the ability to rethink every moment I've ever spent with you, every moment I've ever spent without you, every moment I breathed you in, and every moment you breathed me out.

When it comes to you, dear one, I have the ability to defy all the laws humanity lives by. In some way, stranger, the thought of you, even lightyears away, can make me feel.

Being so far away from humanity, I lost touch with mine. I am no longer kind, nice, or anything that you claimed I was back with you. I will no longer let anyone walk over me. But, you know, stranger, there's no one to walk here anyways.

I guess, being in this vacuum for so long, listening to nothing but the sound of blood rushing through my veins, I think, that maybe, just maybe, I am no longer human at all.

I think, maybe being so far away from any being able to comprehend emotion, I lost that ability myself.

I don't think of it with any sadness, however- not that I could if I tried.

It's alright though, stranger.

I'm alright, stranger.

I'm just speaking to you so that maybe you'll help me out with something.

You see, stranger, for years now I've been in this void so that I could let go of all that ties me down to Earth. You were the first step, you see.

But you were impossible; I could let go of anything but you.

There was so much attached to you that there was no way I'd be able to let go of you so easily.

See, up here, even galaxies away, everything reminds me of you: the stars, the planets, the moons, the emptiness.