Relive

Chapter One

"Reality is when dreams haunt you, not your past"

Why is this place so much crowded , people are rushing in different directions. Analyzing long corridors and doctors pass by I assume it's a hospital, as long as I recall I don't remember witnessing any incident that comes with the conclusion of landing in a hospital.

Clearing my thoughts away, I notice a lady standing at the end of the corridor, it caught my attention as she was the only one who was still at her place , she showed no movements, like just absorbing a shock which shattered her whole world. As I went closer to her , my heart dropped, she was my mom , I ran towards her, but the corridor seemed so long , no matter how close I seemed, she was as far from my reach. When I was just few steps away from her, someone bumped into me and I trembled .

With that my eyes open, and I off the alarm, it was quit awhile since I saw that dream, to my suprise I see it often. Snapping away from my thoughts, Instead I focus on time, after taking a bath and dressing myself in the most formal way possible, i walk to my car. Its my interview after all and I didn't want to take a chance to ruin my first impression.

Finishing my college made me capable of getting a respectful full job. Reaching the office ,I found them convinced by me . They were more pleased to handle me the job, denying the fact that i was eager to get it. After all the paper work done and all the settlements finished. I text up Emily informing her about the news. We both agree to meet at my favourite coffee shop.

Emily was only close freind I had, or maybe the only person who cared for me , she saw me in my best and my worst, when I got scatter in pieces and when I held myself together back again.

I am not a social person, I hardly have any friends, I just turned twenty-four last week, my mom is no more, and my dad left me, before I needed him.

Opening the cafe door, my eyes met Emily, she gave me a warm hug and congratulated me.
"Congrats and Happy belated birthday babe , sorry couldn't meet you this time" she said pretending like she missed an important event. "U know birthdays are not my thing, by the way I am more interested to get details on your holiday with Ian" i said with a wink .

Her eyes lit up while she told me about her amazing time with Ian , maybe that's the thing about love , you feel it every moment.

"So did you meet him this month" Emily asked taking a sip from her coffee. She was talking about my brother who was in rehab. "No , his six months are over , so I will be going directly to pick him up" I say her with a smile.
We chatted for awhile, then shared our goodbyes and exchanged warm hugs .

Me and my brother had a strong connection as siblings , but after mom's death, things just turned the other way round. He moved out and so did I , I just felt he held a responsibility towards me but I guess, I asked for more. When I tried to contact him ,his phone came switched off constantly. I did inquire him from his freinds but he seemed nowhere.

One late afternoon while I was in nearby mall , I heard my name being called from behind, to my suprise it was Tressa, my brother's girlfriend . "Hey Azlin it's been along time" she said with a smile. "Yeah I know a year has passed" i say smiling back at her. My excitement just grew at the sight of seeing her,knowing the possibilities to get to know where my bother would be.

"Have you seen Adam around lately?" She asked me.
"You are not together? I am just so sorry, but you guys broke up?" My voice was strained, as i lost hope on my last way to get to him .
"Yeah long before, last time I heard about him, was when he moved in with Christen" she said preparing herself to leave. "Tressa can I get Christen's address, it's been awhile since I met him"
"Yeah sure"

Christen was my bother's best freind he came around to house often, but being the shy one, I never spoke to him directly. When I reached Christen's house I got to know Adam was a drug addict .

"Last thing I could do being his freind was send him to rehab Azlin, I forced him till the extent that he was left with no choice" Christen said.
I thanked him repeatedly for what he had done. It was not something I expected from Adam, Why did he do something like this to himself? What made him think he had no way out? If only I was there, I would have stopped him somehow, or help him overcome the loneliness. I felt guilty , maybe I was too responsible for this situation .

After knowing the rehab centre he is in, I decided to meet no matter what the possible consequences I would have to face . I admit it's my fault I didn't futher wanted to regret something which i could have done.

Though seeing him after a year was completely surprising, and a lot to take in , but that day I just held my questions unanswered.

I guess he wasn't much pleased to see me , but that didn't back me off from my words, he was the only one left for me , and now no matter what the future brings in I am not going to let him go . Deep inside I knew mom would have expected me to do the same thing.