Relive

Chapter Two

The car ride with Adam was not futher than my expectations, he remained silent and so did I.

"You should look for publishing companies soon, so you can start up with your work."
I said breaking the silence. He just answered in a nod .

I hope he likes to live with me, I just don't know, the fear of losing him again, makes me feel terrible.

Many things have changed in a year. I wish we could just be like how we use to. I wonder why he left with out informing, does he love me the same way like he did before? my thoughts were clouded with hundereds of questions.

Keeping in mind that I am the only one here to handle this relation, in as fragile way as possible. I just decide to brush my thoughts off.

After reaching  the apartment, I showed Adam his room.

"You stay alone?" He asked eyeing the the apartment and putting his luggage at one side.

"Yeah"

"I will find a way out as soon as possible" he said looking away.

"Why? I mean like....you can stay here, what's wrong ? We can stay together."

My last sentence was just a whisper, I didn't want to pressure him with something he wasn't approved off.

"What do you want Azlin? Why are you doing this anyway? You want us back together like a family? Well just don't waste your time on that because what's gone can't come back"
he said without breaking an eye contact from me, I could see the amount of frustration in his eyes.

I lowered my voice as low as possible and replied calmly

"Adam my efforts may seem less , but i dont want to lose an attempt to which we can get back together. I know it's not way easy than I thought, it's gonna take time and a lot of patience. But beleive me, there is nothing I can't sacrifice on my behalf."

"I am sorry" with that he left to the his room.

This might seem new to him, this whole thing. Maybe all he need is just sometime to adjust.

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I prepared lunch for both of us , I know he might have missed home food , so I starting off with something that he likes, probably would calm and relax him down a bit.

After setting the table , I knocked at his door, he opened it within seconds, as if he was just about to step out .

"I have set the table for lunch."

"I will have it later."

With that he made his way out. Though my mood went a bit off, as i prepared lunch for him specially. But I guess I was thinking too much for now.

I was not hungry so decided to pass my Sunday with some snacks and tv. I had to also go for grocery shopping, to fill in the kitchen with Adam's favourites. 

I slipped myself in tight blue jeans and a tank top. Not being a fan of dresses and frocks though saved me a lot of time to get ready. Putting up my hair in a top bun and applying a small amount of lip gloss, I checked up the time.

It was quite late since Adam was gone, I couldn't leave the house because he didn't have the keys.

I heard the doorbell an hour later. Well atleast he didnt take much time. Informing him that i am going out to get groceries and it will take while,  I left.

The bags were quit heavy, with really great difficulty I somehow managed to bring them upstairs.

After opening up the door. My eyes met a pair of hazel ones to my suprise , Adam have greenish blue eyes and I have the same. Well when my sight travelled down futher from his eyes and I was not disappointed with what i saw, he was incredibly hot with a body like one of the models, his blue t-shirt showed how well his body was crafted underneath.