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I didn't know what I was thinking

this is incredibly cliche you've been warned

Tyler's POV

I sat in my bunk on our bus and looked at my twitter feed. It was late, so I laid my phone on the small bed and blocked out the light with the curtain on the side.

My body turned to face away from the curtain, Josh was laying in the bunk underneath mine. I was hoping he wouldn't talk to me. For once in my life I wasn't wishing for a conversation with him.

Earlier today, we were sitting on one of the couches, chatting about something random. It got silent for a minute and it was just me and him looking at each other. I did something stupid, I wasn't thinking, and my head leaned closer to his. Slowly, and keeping my eyes locked with his that seemed to be getting wider by the second. That was my chance. But no, I couldn't bring myself to connecting my lips with his. So I stopped, leaned backward, and gave him a faint awkward smile. Josh had looked confused. I got the courage to walk away and hide somewhere praying he wouldn't come looking for me.
Why did I do that?

My first thought was that maybe he didn't know I wanted to kiss him. But just his facial expressions when I leaned closer said everything. He gave me a weird, disgusted look. He knew.

My nails dug into my neck. I'm such an idiot. Josh probably doesn't want anything to do with me, which is a really big problem now that I think about it. I just want to go to sleep and lay in this small bed on a fancy band bus for the rest of eternity.

In the middle of trying to fall asleep and attempting to disappear from existence, I felt two bangs from the bunk below me.

"Hey Tyler, you awake?" I cringed. Maybe he wants to tell me how much he hates me now. Half of me wanted to speak, but the other half wanted to stay quiet and hope that Josh would assume I was asleep. My mouth stayed shut and I laid perfectly still. Sadly, I had no luck. I could hear Josh climb out of his bunk and open the curtain that was covering mine.

"I know you're up dude. Can we talk?" I sighed and rolled over to face him.

"Talk about what?" I tried my hardest to sound confident, of course that didn't work at all. Josh paused, and just stared at me like he wanted to say something but he couldn't.

"Are you uh, gay?" I felt my cheeks go red, I wasn't expecting that one.

"I-I um. W-Why?" He paused again, and his whole face went red.

"I uh dunno, j-just wondering I g-guess?" Josh cleared his throat nervously, and I was trying to stay as calm and as unfazed as possible. He asked... So I should tell him right? This situation couldn't get worse, could it?

"I g-guess s-so." I finished that sentence, then the words, "Are y-you?" escaped my mouth.

He tensed up and paused for a third time. "Y-yeah, a-a little." I was still laying there, and I gave Josh a tiny smirk. We stayed like that for a while, a long while. I was trying for figure out what he meant by "a little" gay. It could mean a number of things, he could be bi, he could be full on gay, or maybe he just said that to make me feel better. I decided to break the silence.

"So where did t-that come from?" Josh shrugged.

"I don't know, earlier when we were talking, I was thinking about it. Then when you left I kept thinking about it, and I just wanted to ask." I responded with a quiet hmm.

"So about earlier ..." I tried my hardest to keep myself from cringing. If he didn't think I tried to kiss him before, he does now.

Josh's POV

"So about earlier..." I was either expecting Tyler to deny trying to kiss me, or just pretend he had no idea what I was talking about. I said only three words and he got nervous again. I've always had feelings for him, at first it was just me accidently thinking he was adorable or catching myself staring at him more than I stare at my drums during a concert, but it just accelerated. A lot of me wanted to tell him, but before I thought that it might ruin everything. I'm not so worried about that anymore.

"What about e-earlier?" I wanted to just finish what Tyler started earlier, but I had no idea if he wanted to finish it.

"Was that you... trying to kiss me?" He suddenly avoided eye contact with me, then he buried his head in his hands, and nodded. I heard a sigh.

"I'm sorry. I d-don't know what I was thinking." Tyler kept this hands over his face.

"Can you pleaaase move your hands from your face?" His hands dropped and he wasn't avoiding eye contact anymore. My head slowly leaned towards his, he saw, and leaned his head towards mine. After a long wait, our lips touched.

Tyler's POV

"Can you pleaaase move your hands from your face?" That was too cute, I couldn't resist. I moved my hands and looked back at Josh. He was smiling, and I watched as his head got closer and closer to me. I didn't even know that I was doing the same until I felt his lips against mine. My world stopped, I felt myself relax, and what was at first a nervous first kiss, turned into two, three, five, all of them were long and comfortable. It felt right. Finally we pulled apart to take a breath.

"So only a little gay?" Josh's face went red once again.

"Maybe really gay."

There ya go. that was bad ik im sorry. but yes hope someone enjoyed that.
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