Promises last forever (Phan)

Im over you! [1]

Get over me he said, I'm not a fag like you. Those words hurt me and they just kept getting worse. He told me that he never actually loved me and that nobody should love anyone like me, he told me to kill myself. I tried to but I was to scared to so I just went back to my normal routine I got my razor blade out of my drawer lifted up my sleeve to reveal the almost healed scars and went over them. I felt like nobody cared and every time I trailed the blade across my ice cold skin I felt like the hole in my heart that he had left was slowly but surely healing.

I couldn't sleep that night I just kept thinking of those horrible messages I couldn't make them stop so I just sobbed into my pillow and cried myself to sleep.

I woke up 2 hours later to the sound of my mum shouting "Phil time to wake up honey!" I just groaned and pulled myself out of bed. I showered and straightened my hair making sure my fringe was long enough to cover the bags under my eyes. I dragged my uniform on and walked down stairs to find my mum had made me breakfast. "I made you some toast hurry and eat it you only have 10 minutes until the bus comes." I smiled at her "Thanks mum your the best" she smiled back at me "Aww no problem honey, remember and put gloves on its cold outside." "Okay mum" I said munching on my toast.

5 minutes later I pulled my bag over my shoulder and walked to the bus stop. I was the only one that got on at my stop so I got my phone and earphones out and started to listen to Emperors new clothes by P!ATD. The bus was early so I was only waiting for 2 minutes then I got on the bus and sat alone. When I was on the bus I thought about what Jason and his friends were going to do to me they usually just call me names and occasionally trip me up but last night Jason said he was going to beat the shit outta me, I was dreading it. I had a plan if they just called me names I was going to ignore them but if they were going to beat me up then just run.

The bus pulled up to the last stop before it headed to the school and a bunch of people got on including Clydie (one of Jason's friends) but luckily he sat at the back of the bus. Finally the last person got on, he was tall and had dark brown hair that was cut into a fringe similar to mine but on the opposite side of his face, I had never seen him before which I thought was quite strange but I didn't think much of it. He approached me and asked if he could sit in the seat beside me because it was the last seat on the bus, I said sure and put my earphones back in and pressed play on my playlist. For the rest of the journey (5 minutes) I just stared out the window thinking about how attractive that guy was.