Forever and always

Social Demolition Part 2

I felt victimised and weak they had all just attacked me in front of everyone, even though they didn't mention my name, everyone knew it was me. I was hurt and I felt sick to my stomach, I skipped dinner that night and lay in my bed in tears. Mum came in to see if I was Hungary but I pretended I was asleep. I just lay there sobbing for hours until my pillow was soaked. There were no tears to cry and my eyes were dry.

I still didn't understand why she'd done it and then why she would lie about it afterwards, if she had of been straight forward about it I would have understood, I mean I would have been upset but we could have talked about it. Now I think that I'll just forget about her. To think that she would just go behind my back and do this. She said to me and I quote

'You weren't going to do anything with him anyway I was just doing what you were too scared to do'
What does that even mean? I wasn't going to do anything, as in sleep with him? I really don't get it but all the crying has made me tired. I'll get some rest and work it out in the morning.