Sounds stupid, doesn't it?
"My heart skipped a beat when I saw him." I could say that, but it didn't.
I did feel something.
It was a crush.
It's still a crush, it comes and goes.
I say that I hate him just ,so I stop liking him.
I don't hate him, but I don't love him either.
He is a crush. He was a crush. He could still be a crush.
crush /krəSH/
nouninformala brief but intense infatuation for someone, especially someone unattainable or inappropriate.
I remember I thought I was special he liked all of my instagram pictures. It's stupid, believe me I know.
I found out he did that with everyone. Sigh.
I thought he was cute. He still is.
But I didn't want to get hurt. I know how crushes work and they never work out for me. It did work once, but it hasn't happened again. I doubt it will.
I built a wall.
I ignored him on purpose, I wasn't meaning to make him feel bad, but I did it anyway.
He might have been attracted to me
and I blew it.
He ignored me back.
And here I am at 12 am writing about my regrets to a website.
I have a lot more things to say about this I guess, but I will leave it here.
Just because those memories don't feel like being written yet.
If there is somebody reading remember this please.
It sounds a little corny and maybe it's something you hear a lot.
I should've followed my feelings instead of being a coward.
So my advice to you is:
Follow your heart. No I don't mean tell him/her or jump at him/her.
I'm just saying that you need to let them in a little bit. Don't push them away.
Nobody enjoys being pushed away.
Yea it might suck if the person doesn't return the feelings back, but what if they do?
You will never know if you stay in the limbo of the: "what if? "
I'm not saying to reveal yourself to quickly.
I'm just saying that you should get to know them, fall in like, not love, like with the.
Love is another matter.
If it doesn't work, at least you tried. Another person will come around and maybe it will work out with them.
Please avoid staying in the: "what if? "
It's not pretty.
Don't lose the people that make your heart beat a little faster, like I did.
