it was a rainy sunday, exactly a week from the day sofie died. luke was on his way to her funeral, thinking about how last year right around this time, he was doing the same thing for his best friend calum. thinking about how even though its only two in one year, that's two too many funerals.
luke knew that sofie was depressed. but he didn't think she would take it this far, especially because of what she witnessed with calum. she's the one who found his body after he committed suicide. she was so torn up about it, she didn't do anything for weeks. she became depressed and even broke up with luke.
when luke walked into the funeral home he was greeted by two people he didn't recognize who handed him a piece of paper with sofie' picture. he shoved the picture into his back pocket and started walking around, not recognizing any of the faces he saw. that is until sofies mom, marie, walked over to him and handed him a brown notebook that said Paris at the bottom and a shadow of the Eiffel Tower.
"i think you might want to read this." she told him as she pressed a crumpled kleenex underneath her eye. luke just nodded and took a seat at the back.
two hours and a lot of tears later, sofies funeral was over. luke didn't want to hang around anymore then he had to. he got out the door as quickly as he could and walked to his car. he idled for a while and stared at the notebook sofies mom had given him just before. he was really scared to open it. he finally got the courage and slowly opened the brown book.
luke had to stay in the parking lot for a very long time. all the cars were gone and it was starting to get dark. but he was still sitting in his car in the parking lot of sofies funeral, staring at that stupid notebook. tears had been streaming down his face about 5 letters in. how could he have hurt her this much ? he didn't know what to do anymore.
after reading each letter at least three times he decided he needed to leave. he didn't want to be at the funeral home anymore. he didn't want to be anywhere. so he just kept driving until his gas light turned on. still crying. he visited all the places him and sofie went to. he first went to the diner, that was closed on Sunday's. he parked right in front of the booth they say in so long ago when luke had asked her to be his girl friend. then he drove to the carnival that they used to go to as much as they could. the one that nobody even knew was there. then he went to the beach that now was empty where luke first told sofie he loved her. he wished he could tell her again. he wished sofie knew that he never stopped loving her. he only dated delilah to try and get over sofie. he never wanted it to get this far.
as the memories flood through his body he gets shivers and cries even more. pounding his hands on the steering wheel. his last stop was the zoo that they visited with their families multiple times. of course it was closed because with all the stops he made it was already passed 9pm. he could just barley see into the park where they got ice cream and a little stand. Luke had a flashback of when sofie had shoved her ice cream into his face, causing his to fall off the small cone. luke smiled at the memory.
it wasn't until 11pm that luke had gotten the courage to leave. he had the Paris notebook in his lap as he drove home. half way back he decided he wanted to go to sofies house, just drive by outside. he didn't want to let go of her just yet.
luke was still crying but he was almost there. caught up in his tears they were blinding his vision, he reached up to wipe them out of his face as he turned left into sofies neighbourhood.
he didn't make it into her neighbourhood. as he turned the corner a bright light flashes over his car and a loud horn rings lukes ears.
when you get hit by a 20 000 pound 18 wheel semi truck it's almost instant death. lukes car was thrown across the road crimped immediately under the impact. the car flipped twice around and landed on the shoulder of the road. a little fire had started at the back of the car and blood was everywhere.
that's why it's a miracle that luke woke up for a short period of time after he was hit. he was upside down barley able to move. blood was covering his eyes and soaking his shirt, but he somehow was able to notice the notebook that sofie had written to him, with no intention of him actually seeing it.
lights started flashing around luke from the ambulances and firetrucks finally arriving.
Luke looked at the notebook just barley touching it, but it falls open to a page, the last letter sofie wrote. luke read her words
"but i guess im just saying thank you. thank you luke hemmings. and i love you. always have always will."
"i love you too sofie..." luke whispered.
then his eyes slowly closed.
A/N
OKAY GUYS THIS IS THE LAST ONE EVER OMG
thank you to everyone who read this even tho it's prolly only 4 people and those 4 people are prolly just my friends being supportive ❤️
but yay this is a sad endin and omg almost 1000 words in this I'm impressed with myself.
&& ALSO:
I'm starting a new book called forever yours idk when I'm posting it but yeah (in case your someone that doesn't socialize with me on the daily lmao) and it's pretty similar to this style like its a letter but not the same plot obvs.
THANKS LOVE YOU BYE
1030 words omf
