Beep beep beep beep .
He is sitting there a hollow empty look in his eyes.
I gather all possible strength and formulate anything wothy of saying "gus.."
Before I can say any more he stops me "stop,I can't do this I am here,...only for the baby " a surge of emotions as the word 'only' echoes through my head submerges in a puddle of emotions but I lock the flood gates "....ok ..... how is the baby?"
After a endless silence he jumps up barely looking me in the eyes "good I will be back tomorrow - ..for the baby"
I let go releasing every possible tear until i start again.i feel raw - no layers to protect me
He comes in the next day ,we do exchange something that resembles small talk although every single second is so painful and excruciating.
When the one you love ,the one you trust, the father of your child can barely look at you.Its like watching every hope and every thing you wanted burn to nothing but ashes.
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I go home.
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Here I feel free. I am in contol.For once I have power over my life.Not my cancer.Not augustus.Not the baby.
Just me.
I take a step forward the world so small and insignificant as the wind blows past me causing me to wobble.
"I cant do this because theres life in me can i?"
"..Hazel what !!"
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'the fault in our stars' alternate ending
Novela JuvenilI cried at the ending if tfios and had a massive book hangover until I decided to revive it so...here is my alternate ending All rights reserved to john green the writer of the original novel
