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Chapter 7 Where's Jessie?

A/N: hope you enjoy this is in Trystan's POV because of what happened to Jess in the previous chapter and basically this is like Trystan's views of what happened in the previous chapter and his reaction to when she doesn't come back not long after she went to the toilet. So enjoy and if you like it please vote for this chapter and I'll see you at the end of the chapter, bye!

Trystan
I felt guilty, for what I did to Jessie. For leaving her to explain to her mum what happened. I wasn't thinking about her and how she'd be upset, I was thinking about myself. I was thinking about what would happen if people found out about us. Found out that I could maybe like someone instead of using girls for their beauty instead of their intelligence.

I was also stupid, for talking to her to begin with. Letting her start to break down the walls that I had built up for years, so no one would see. For letting her see that side of me that not even my best friend had saw in me.

That was when it hit me. I cared about her. I actually cared about her more than I care about anything or anyone else in the world. I just wouldn't admit it to her or really in way to myself.  That is until later that day when I was talking to Sarah. God I felt so stupid for admitting that she changed me, for kissing her. It was my fault, if it wasn't for me then we wouldn't have had that fight and she wouldn't have disappeared to the bathroom. It must have been because of me. Though as I thought about it, she had taken awhile in the bathroom, and she hadn't come back when it had been about half an hour. I frowned. Where the hell is Jessie? I thought to myself.

I then looked over at Sarah, who was looking at me, probably wondering the exact same thing, which is why she mouthed where the F is Jessie? I shrugged, mouthing;

No idea, why what's wrong? She shook her head and all of a sudden her face turned from worried to frightened, knowing something that I didn't and she was making me worried. Shit, shit, shit!

I swallowed and bit my lip. She better be okay I thought to myself I don't know what I'll do if she's not okay. After a while, the teacher finally started to notice.

"Does anyone know where Jessica is?" She asked, we all shook our heads. I looked at Sarah, then to the teacher.

"Can Trystan and I go look for her?" Sarah asked. "She went to the bathroom so maybe she's just thinking or something?" She guessed. She was guessing but she knew something I didn't, and I needed to know what she knew so I could find out if Jessie was okay.

The teacher let us go so we could find Jessie. As soon as we were out of the classroom I turned to Sarah.

"You're worrying me, what's wrong with Jessie?" She frowned.

"Nothing's wrong with her, but she finally trusted you and you betrayed her. You were talking and you obviously made her upset. She went through a tough time at school. She... She went through some dark times. So now I'm worried she's tried to do something because you made her upset. Either that or she could've had some kind of attack and passed out." Sarah said, "she may look strong, but she's not. She's broken. It's all your fault if something has happened to her!" She snapped.

And then I broke. "I know it's my fault, I know! I hate myself for it. I was a jerk to her, I know that, and worried shit about her and I have no idea, what's happened to her and I'm scared. I'm scared she's the reason something bad has happened and I care about her too much to lose her." I sighed. Sarah suddenly stopped.

"So you do care about her?" She asked, "then why did you do what you did last night?"

"I don't know, okay?" I said, "I was too worried about my damn self to think about what I was doing!"