Hotline Bling. {jdb}

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•Lilias

I had one class on Sunday and it started at 5:30am which was too early but not like I slept anyways. When I got that text message from Justin, I pissed myself. I actually was sitting on the toilet and pissed myself!

I can't believe he texted me. He actually wants to be friends, which was the most mind blowing thing ever. It just made my stomach churn but I did actually want to get to know him.

I parked my car on campus parking as close to my class as I could. Not many people were out because of the hour. I already had my list for today planned.

I had class from 5:30 to 9:30am and yes, I know it's really fucking long. Then right after class I am supposed to go to Josh's so that is 9:50am to at the most 1:00pm. But most the time he doesn't go for round two but sometime when he has bad days he does. Guess I'll find out when I get there.

I walk all the way to class alone and get there a few minutes early and go to take my seat where I usually sit in the middle. Few people were in this class and I only really conversed with four of the kids in here. But I absolutely loved the teachers and he liked me just as well.

I sat and got on my phone again to see a text message from, sadly, Josh. He was making sure we were still on for after my class and I shot him a quick text back replying "yep".

The room started to fill up the usual amount of students and then our teachers waltzed in and if I were to say he looked awful would've been an understatement. He looked like he was either hungover or really sick.

"Okay, turn in your papers. We aren't having class today because I'm not well." He said and stood up from his desk and opened the door as all of the students including me, got out our papers and handed them to him as we left.

Yay, no class. I got my phone out on my way walking to my car and texted Josh telling him I was heading over right now because class got canceled. I got a text back in a second saying that it was fine.

It was a twenty minute drive to Josh's house that he lived in alone. His parents bought it for him as a birthday present, I got a piece of gum for my birthday. And he complains it isn't big enough, rich kids problems. Darn, those parents buying you a nice house and everything.

I finally reached his house and saw a car I didn't know in the driveway so I stopped at the curb further away from his house. I was almost certain that Sadie was here and I was not about to get beat by her by showing up at her boyfriends house.

I sat in my car approximately five minutes before I saw Sadie running to her car a big smile on her face. She zoomed out of the neighbourhood and after she was safely gone I got out of my car and walked up to the side entrance of the house and knocked on the door.

"Sa— Oh, thank god it's you. Bitch, was getting on my nerves." He said as he pulled me inside and as soon as the door shut his lips were on mine with a hungry passion. I kissed back as I always did and ran my hands up his sides feeling his toned body. He groaned as I did so and soon picked me up as I wrapped my legs around his waist.

He walked to his bedroom which was lucky on the first floor, since he had two floors in his house. My legs were still around his waist and soon I felt my back collide with his bed and I was being flipped over on my stomach.

He pulled down my yoga pants as I heard him pulling his zipper down as well. I then also heard him reaching over to his night and grabbing the small foil packet as it made a small flapping sound. I heard the packet being opened, rolled onto him, then felt him plunging into my body, almost as if combining our bodies into one.

After a relentless amount of moans and grunts I felt Josh start throbbing inside of me, a clear sign he was about to come. As his thrusts got sloppier I did something I knew would drive him absolutely insane.

"Oh, Josh!" I whimpered loudly, not necessarily screaming though. His hand went to my hair pulling my head back as he thrusted into me one more time as I felt him release inside the condom.

"Babe, that was so fucking hot." He whispered into my ear, then tumbling onto the bed next to me. I usually would've smiled at him but this time it was different. Something about doing us doing it this time made me feel an unsettling sensation in the pit of my stomach.

"I have to go, I feel sick. I will probably call you later." I said pulling up my yoga pants, slipping my shoes on and running out off his room without him being able to say a word.

The next thing I knew I was in my car and hitting the gas pedal to get me home. I'm not going to say that I felt wrong because it always feels wrong. I am aware that what I'm doing is a shitty thing to do but when you do it is exhilarating. It's a feeling of rebellion, it makes you keep doing it but now? Now that feeling was nothing and it's just uninteresting, and completely and utterly disappointing in myself.

When I got home I went up to my room and just sat on my bed. I had no idea what to do if I ask Lucia she will tell me to keep going but I don't know if I want to. I'm the reason someone is in a bad relationship and that's so terrible. I finally decided to try and get my mind off of it and do something else.

Lilias: Helloooooo it's me.

Justin: I was wondering if after all these years you'd like to meet.

Lilias: I would love to but classes are a pain in my ass so ;-(

Justin: it was a figure of speech but aw ;'( what are you studying btw?

Lilias: neuropharmacology, I'm gonna be a brain drug dealer

Justin: oh that's cool

Lilias: yeahhh, whatchu wanna b when you grow up

Justin: well I'm kinda doin' it right now

Lilias: no like family and stuff. Like want kids and shit

Justin: ohooo. Wanna make babies with me? I'm catching on to you ;)

Lilias: every girl does so stfu. But fr

Justin: yeah I want kids and I want them to have a normal life but be able to give them what they want

Lilias: same. I want my kid to be into music like I am. When she asks for concert tickets I will be able to give them to her/him and yeah idk I never had that opportunity

Justin: yeah same. My mom couldn't afford all that but we managed

Lilias: my mum was always working and I remember staying up till she came home from work and we would have a box of Wheaties together...lol those were good times

Justin: aw, stop your really making me miss my mom. I have a break soon tho so I'm going to see her and I'm excited about it

Lilias: I'm going home for spring break then maybe something else idk

Justin: isn't spring break like a month or two away?

Lilias: yeah. It's sucks but I'll manage

Justin: where does she live?

Lilias: we live in Vermont. I miss it there, Kentucky is a lot different

Justin: everywhere is different than home

Lilias: touché

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