Everyone lets her down

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Someone who really loves you, see what a mess you can be, how moody you can get and how hard you are to handle. But still wants you in their life ❤️

Many people think they know me but they don't yes I  am the princess and I've got it all I've got money and power but I never asked for all that there was a time when I was a girl where I was happy where my family was some what normal sounds funny doesn't it being normal? like I could have that even if I wanted to ill never have that and ill never have true happiness. I Mean as if I could meet a guy that I wanted to be with and it actually work out hey they either sleep with your mom are married or just want sex right hey with my odds my mom wont like them at all then id really want to be with them the princess cant have love you ask why well ill tell you why because people disappoint me use me lie betray me and most of all hurt me.. I have loved someone hard to believe I know he was married we met when we were 17 he was always there  for me when I needed him just always had bad timing.. he didn't accept me for me in the end I guess that's what true love should be the person accepting you for your crazing out of control weird pain in the ass self. My dad once told me I could be better but im the princess im not used to better I give the people what they want and then they say shitty ass rumors or that im a whore.. well that's fine because no one knows the real me no one ever gives me that chance no one except my brothers and father I mean my mom hates me if you ask me my mom is the reason I do drugs and act crazy she once called me a nothing I love proving people wrong. I was recently asked what is it that I want in life well Id have to say true love I know its cheesy and messy but I don't want the I love you bull shit.. I want the painful devastating fuck me I hate you cant live without you not disappointing ill be there when you need me your a pain in the ass correct me when im wrong I hate you I love you love because my life isn't perfect why should my love life be not like I could have one my life is to crazy and hectic it never works just ask the queen.