Since the age of 9,
A case of depression was formed,
Age 12,
Suicide a constant thought in my head,
6 years of hating myself,
Lying to people so they wont get hurt,
So they won know what truly gos on in my head,
To this day no one really does,
Because no one wants to know,
"I'll stop cutting I swear"
Words that are used to often,
But never kept true,
"I won go deep"
Yet every time I push deeper,
Every time,
Lying,Self-hate, depression,Cutting,
How much longer will I keep the "I'm fine",
Or "I'm happy look at me" act up?,
How much longer until I go too deep,
How much longer until I stop hurting ones closest to me,
Will it ever break?,
Will I ever be the daughter my dad wanted,
I've created a monster,
A monster of myself,
Can anyone help,
Or will I be left alone to defend myself
