Impassive

Impassive 7

Nightmare

            My eyes opened slowly trying to adjust to the bright sunlight shining through the window. It must be about three in the afternoon. I felt a strong arm around my waist, holding me against their side. I looked up and saw Barren sleeping peacefully. I couldn’t stop the high pitched scream that escaped my mouth when the idea that we had sex passed through my mind.

            Barren’s eyes snapped open and he looked down at me, confused. When I heard footsteps in the hall I frantically got out of his arms and out of the covers. My parents barged through the door. My mom smiled knowingly at us and my dad started laughing. Horrible parents. I looked back at Barren and saw him laughing too.

            I wanted to laugh with them, but I couldn’t. I could only think of what happened the other day. So stupidly I started crying.

            My dad ran over to me with my mom trailing behind when they heard me crying, and he hugged me, “Baby what’s wrong?”

            “Nothing dad…it’s just embarrassing.” I lied. I felt bad. I never lied to my dad. I old him everything, but I’m too ashamed to tell him what happened at the party, “Please, just leave.”

            He looked at me like he knew there was more to my random crying, “Okay honey, but you don’t have to be embarrassed or shy about this. Sex is normal.” He kissed me on the top of my head before walking out with my mom.

            “Have fun.” My mom said before closing the door.

            I hung my head in my hands trying to clear my head, “Rayne are you okay?” It seemed like he was asking that a lot lately.

            I sniffed letting some tears slip out, “Yeah.”

            “Liar, something else is wrong,” He waited to see if I was going to say more, but I kept quiet, “Okay, another question, I know we didn’t have sex, but why are you half naked?” I was only wearing my bra and panties and Barren was still in his basketball shorts and Bob Marley shirt.

            “Because sometimes I get hot when I smoke weed or drink so I had to take off my clothes.”

            Barren smirked at me knowingly, “Mhmm, sure. If you wanted to get naked with me all you had to do was ask Rayne. I’m already enjoying the view right now,” He winked and stared at my body, looking me up and down, “Come one lets get naked.” He started pulling off his shirt and threw it to the ground before reaching for his shorts.

            “No!” I screamed, “Stop, please, clothes on.” I sobbed weakly. I hated showing weakness, what hell has happened to me? I used to be so strong, never gave away my emotions. Soon I’d be a little crybaby in front of everyone at school.

            “I’m sorry,” He gasped, while pulling up his shorts, “What the hell is wrong with you? Why are you crying?”

            I looked back at him and he was looking at me sincerely, “No reason.”

            “This is about what happened at the party huh?” I simply nodded, “Why won’t you just tell me Rayne. Please, you can really trust me. Please.” He looked so desperate to know and as if he genuinely cared for me.

            The tears began running down my cheeks rapidly, “I can’t.” I squeaked out. He jumped from my bed and suddenly I saw anger flash through his eyes.

            “You know what, fuck it. Why the fuck am I trying so hard. I’m just wasting my time. I’m starting to act like a fucking girl. I’m out.” He looked sad for a bit, but his eyes were still flowing with anger. He started for the door, but I couldn’t let him go, not after what he said. His words struck me hard. He was right; no guy would ever try this hard.