Their is still debris

Past

I just figured out something really funny.

I always thought I was the weak one. I thought I was happy with you and our group of "friends". However that relationship was toxic. I thought I was happy but I never really was. I was so sad and mad at myself for being unhappy because I had such "good and supportive friends". Fuck that. I was being pranked.

Then I realized the people who gave me so much pain....they are the ones who say that they are so strong they can stand alone. But the truth is when it comes down to it they will do anything and say anything not to be alone. I am so frickin happy. You have no idea. Like I never thought I could be this happy.

They thought I would never stick up for myself. They thought they "owned" me. Uh no. I might have been happy for awhile in that friendship but it just went downhill. I mean I doubt they even actually loved me. But the worst thing is I truly loved them.

It's not that easy being alone. When they left me for someone else "better" they actually did me a favor...in the long run. Of course right away it was hell. Yet, while you are all caught up in your dumb drama. I have people that actually love me. Like actual people. And I love them. I love them so much.

There is so much less drama in my life now. Just wow I can't believe it.

It's like I used to be stuck in shows of Pretty Little Liars. Not having a place to turn. I can't tell people secrets without everyone knowing. Some people have stronger relationships than others. But if there is stronger relationship than others the head bitch gets mad. No one gets away except the people who die. So it's like I died and somehow came back to life.