I arrive to my door room and noticed it was already 2:00 pm. Did I just spend all morning talking with Harry? I shook my head. My phone started buzzing; it was my mum.
"Samie?" I was still lost in my world of thoughts.
"Hi mum!" I finally managed to say.
"How's it going baby? Oh sweetie, we miss you! I never wanted you to leave, remember when we left your brother, I feel like it was only yesterday." Yep my mum was a drama queen, but I love her.
'We miss you' more like she misses me, not my brother nor my sister, just dad and her.
"I miss you too mum, I love it here. Today's my homecoming dinner and I bought a beautiful baby blue dress. I'll send you a picture later." I said smiling but suddenly my smile faded away when I remembered I was going with Harry.
"Oh Samie, I hope it all goes perfect tonight not like the other-"
"It wont, it would be perfect." I cut her off trying hard not to cry at memories of my last prom.
"Okay hun." She sounded upset. " Please have lunch, don't stop eating please Samantha."
"Mum, I'm not a baby anymore." I said and I noticed Perrie taking a seat in my bed. "Actually, I just had lunch." I lied.
"Great, what did you have?" Mom asked, worried i guess.
"I actually, erm- went with a friend we ate waffles." I lied, again.
"Sounds yummy! Okay, have fun tonight." My mum cheered.
"Yeah, thanks." I hung up and sighed. I hated lying to my mom but ever since Charlie passed away i stopped eating like i used to. And you may think I'm overreacting, i just lost a friend. Well i wish i had just 'lost a friend'. I didn't, I killed my best friend, the love of my life, I saw his body in pieces, destroyed.
"I'm so excited for tonight." Perrie cheered breaking me out of my thoughts, i jumped a little in surprise.
I smiled.
"Me too!" I didn't lie, I was excited but I didn't want to see Harry.
"Jake is picking me up for lunch with the boys, I think Danny is coming over too." She wiggled her eyebrows. What? I don't like Daniel.
"Oh no I just had lunch, but tell them I say hi." I lay in my bed.
"Well, then just take a seat with us. Please?" she was begging, again.
I giggled.
"Let's go then." I smiled.
~
We arrived to Matty and Jesy's apartment and it was the same routine of the last time I went, except that this time, Harry was here. We were all having a laugh, Matty was really funny, even tho he scared me the shit out of me I did laugh every time he said something, I'm not even kidding.
Perrie decided that it was best if we left the dresses upstairs so 'the boys wouldn't see them' I didn't care if Harry saw mines, its not like we are getting married or something. Jesy insisted that she wanted to do our make up and hair so we were changing in her room.
"Pizza's ready." Jesy shouted and we all ran to the big table like little kids.
"I couldn't ask for a better woman." Mathew said grabbing Jesy's waist, while taking a bite from the pizza. "WHAT THE FUCK JESY THIS PIZZA IS HORRIBLE."
We were all shocked when he suddenly pulled out a laugh and kissed Jesy's forhead.
"HORRIBLY DELICIOUSLY." He added with a wink.
"Did that word even exist?" Niall laughed and so did we.
The scent of the pizza made me wanted to eat it, but I couldn't.
"You sure you don't want to eat Samantha?" Jake asked me like if he could read my mind.
"Come on, just take one!" Daniel said smirking and I couldn't help but giggle.
"One wont make you lose shape." Harry said teasing.
Everyone cooed.
"Isnt Harry totally checking Samie out?" Nathan said and I blushed.
"Shut up." I took a bite of the most delicious pizza I've ever tasted, yes I am a drama queen but it is true. "God this pizza is delicious, Jesy."
Everyone laughed.
Two pizzas more and a couple of laughs filled in the room, I was full and felt like exploding. It was only 5:00 pm and the guys decided we were watching a movie in the big living room that was more like a little cinema filled with pillows and blankets.
"So, do you guys want to see paranormal activity 3 or project x?" Danny asked while holding the two movies on his hands.
Everyone started arguing about watching project x instead of paranormal activity but obviously the girls won and we watch project x. Its not that we loved project x its just we are all chickens and don't want to watch paranormal activity, literally.
"Okay but if I grow a boner, don't look at me like I didn't warn you." Nate said serious.
We all started laughing.
"Gross." Perrie chuckled.
The movie was just in the middle when I decided I was going to bathroom. God Damn it, I was so scared about tonight. I looked at my phone 6:30 PM.
What if my dress doesn't fit, I ate too much today.
I thank God the bathroom were downstairs, and the TV was super loud.
My hands were shaking as I walked to the toilet; I needed to do it. Just one last time, I introduce my middle finger to my throat and the vomit spilled out like a waterfall, explicit I know.
It hurted, but it was worth it. I almost felt my throat on fire, I don't know if I was making any noise but God... I didn't care to be honest.
'So, you are going to homecoming with me right?' he said and his green greyish eyes sparkled.
Kiss at midnight.
'Please be my girlfriend Samie.' He said and his lips where shaking, they looked so pink.
'But you're my best friend.' I said shaking.
"Stop Samantha, drop i-it." I sobbed with tears in my eyes.
I needed to stop. I stood up and make sure that the toilet was clean and I left the bathroom.
"You need to explain what I just heard." My heart was beating louder.
Styles.
