I'm sorry I haven't been writing. I just found out a few days ago my moms step mom only has week to live. I guess I should have known. I visited her for what will be the last time according to doctors. She's at home on a constant morphine drip and looks horrible. I have never liked her. Never truly considered her a grandma. But when I found out it killed me. Now here I am crying and talking to my dead cousin. Also fighting the urge to slice through my arm. That song is how I feel. Please pray for her!
