Susy died today. I haven't cried. It's horrible. They seem not to care that I have just lost my step grandma. Though I never liked her. That doesn't mean this is easy. When my cousin died was when I learned to suppress my emotions. They never really let us open up about it. So now here I am only tearing up about someone's death. Mourning the fifth death within not even a full 3 years. 3 of which happened same year. 1 I'm not sure of when he died. 1 just died earlier. So yeah there goes to more holidays I once loved. Fist Easter ruined because my cousin died the Friday before Easter. Now Thanksgiving and Christmas. Yay! Note the sarcasm in the yay. So yeah there you go.
