This is totally random ranting

I Don't Know Where To Live D:

I'm in a tough situation. An adult situation. I have no freaking idea what to do.  I've thought about running away and/or killing myself, but I'm not that stupid. I've tried getting help from my family, but they're just making it harder.

See my problem is: IDK WHERE 2 LIV!!!

I'm tired of living with my mom, but I love her and if I stay, then I get more expensive and better crap! I'll also have wifi! I'll be able to travel. I'll be able to see my friends! I'm tired of living there because I have absolutely NO freedom whatsoever and my step-dad is a hypocritical jerk! 

It's always "No Halle, we are busy."

"No Halle, we are working."

"No Halle, you have to watch your sister."

"No Halle, YOU'RE TOO IRRESPONSIBLE!!"

My other option, is to live with my father... my biological father and my step-mom. The problem there is: they don't have a lot of money, they're feeding six mouths, there are only three small rooms, and my step-mom treats me like my younger siblings (3 and 6). 

On the subject of treating me like a six year old, she makes me go to bed at NINE O'CLOCK  ON A WEEKEND!!! I'm not allowed to go outside if it's dark or raining even thought we live next to almost no one! She buys me these little girly clothes with sparkles and ribbons and crap for little girls. She won't let me play on my ps2 or GameCube for over an hour and she's totally not fair at all... so what shall I do?

I REALLY want to live with my Nana because she is the BEST person ever and I love going to her house and playing video games with my uncle and spending time with their dog, Lady. They are the best people ever and they treat my like a normal teenager. I feel the most love from them, BUT MY BIOLOGICAL PARENTS WON'T LET ME LIVE WITH THEM!!! Uuuugh!! It's making me have freaking panic attacks with all of this pressure! Along with relationship issues and emotions and low self esteem and the fact that I like a girl while I have a boyfriend... help?