Hush children

Emily

I don't know what exactly what to do. I am new around here. I mean I'm new at this. I don't know where to even start. Well I should start off with my name.. Hi I'm Emily. I have blue eyes.... And.. oh I have been silent for two years. Well that is from last year and this year. At my old school I never spoke. I would always sign. But I am not deaf. I just don't like the sound of my voice. I sound like a little whiny kid. All of my old friends voices where changing and mine wasn't. I don't understand why. I mean I did skip a grade but that really doesn't mean anything. All I know is that I was sitting in class one day and I was talking and then everyone was laughing at me. I taught myself how to sign. So many people ask me if I am deaf. I would shake my head. Then what they would always ask me is why don't I talk. I would point to my throat. I think they assume that I always have a sore throat. Do you want to know what is weird? There is this boy named Drew and he keeps looking at me. I think he is cute. But the thing is I think he has a girl friend. I just wish that he likes me too.  I mean I know he wouldn't though. He is a sweet, smart, athletic, active, popular guy. I just wish I could talk to him. My problem is that if I do talk I am afraid that he would just laugh. I hate how I am in the 8th grade and I am the only one who sounds like a little kid still. Well that is the people that talk at least. I have no idea what some of the others that went silent sound like. I bet I will never know huh.. I just wish I can make friends though too. I mean I'm shy and everything.. I just... I don't know how.. I guess some people just have a harder time making friends. Oh well. I guess maybe later this year I will have the courage to tell Drew how I feel. Oh I almost forgot!! there is this kid named Benny and he seems so cool!! If I could make friends with anyone it would be him. Well I need to go I have to do stuff for school. Bye you guys!!