Hush children

Benny

I have been silent for about ten years now. I have always been afraid to speak. Every time I tried I would become a victim of abuse. I was abused from my parents and my brother. On top of that I was getting bullied at school. I figured if I don't speak I would not get abused. So far it has worked. Every time I stand in the bathroom in front of the mirror I see a little boy with scares and bruises on him. People call me weird because I don't talk. People ask me "why did you just all of a sudden stop talking?" I say to myself if I was to keep talking when I did I would look worse. Same routine everyday. Wake up get screamed at. Walk down stairs get hit from my brother and get shoved to the closet. Get my breakfast and leave. This happens daily. I'm the youngest one. I'm in middle school and my brother is just a year older than I. He is our parents favorite. That will never change. When I get home it's two times worse. I get beaten on the bus on top of it my brother is waiting for me when I get off. He would wave to the bus driver than push me down on the ground and start kicking me. I wanted to scream but then he would abuse me more. My parents didn't care what my brother did to me all they cared about is if he was hurt or not. I stopped caring. I would only get cold things to eat. Cold hot dogs, pizza from the night before, cereal, cans of soup(not even cooked) and anything else that you can think of that is cold. My mom works as a lawyer. My dad is in the process of finding a job. First he has to go to aa. Mom is the one paying for him to go to aa. He stopped drinking about two months ago. Before then when I walked into the house I would have my dad punching me. Next week would be four years. I can't believe I have been quite for 10 years. How much more can I put up with this. One day I was sitting in class and the person who sits next to me is this guy named Drew. He is one of those people like to help out with people. He never talks to me but he is very well known. I have seen him around a lot. He plays wrestling. He is the caption of the team. He has been wrestling for about 3 years. That is my story. But there are more of us that you still need to meet.