Feelings of a out cast...

Madness everywhere i go

What have you done to me, I can't forget the games you played on my heart..

Why must you have done such mean things to the one that loved you

I only wanted to protect you, and keep you safe from the danger of this cruel world

I never expected to have fallen for you but it had happened and you took advantage of me

You told me you loved me and took it back saying you was joking, knowing my feelings for you

Doing once is bad enough but doing over and over just hurting me, knowing I would never leave your side

I started to believe I'm nothing but a mistake, something that's not needed, something with no meaning and no purpose

My heart got sick of you games after seven years and gave up on the thought of you

But now when a guy says he like me or ask me out, my chest ache and I feel as if he just trying to  toy with me

I'm no longer able to feel love from any male, even if it was I who confess my true feelings to him first..

I feel as if in time he will explain that what he said was a mistake and I go back to my thinking

That of course no men would love me, I'm not pretty, I'm stupid, fat, not enough, a loser

I'm just unlovable and always will because I'm cursed with being me...