Feelings of a out cast...

 I close my eye, and wish everything was different but it wont come true.

I pray for the people around me knew what I go through and stop making it seem like nothing but thy'll never understand.

The feeling of wanting to get so drunk to forget, who I am.

how nothing go right, and everything is wrong...

Is it just me???

Am i the one that don't belong???

I cry my self asleep and i hold my breath until passing out but the problem is I always have to wake up.

There are slim list of things that make me happy but lately does things seem so far.

Why cant I be the same as them or why cant thy just pretend that I'm there and see that I'm really in pain but not invisible and NOT just being a TEEN with emotion problems.

I'm sick of pretending everything is all good but when I don't its like I'm not the real me that they act like they know.

 

** i'm a girl with a secret no one knows, i go through depression, and I'm always wish and praying to die. but my family just pushing me more in to it . my boyfriend is dieing of a brain tumor, my best friend left me with nothing but a broken heart 3 years of being best friends, and its like my mom is in the hospital more than her house i wasn't the person she knew anymore. so why should i live why was i put on this earth... I'm only 16 why is this stuff happening to me