IN LUST

Chapter Four

      "May I change the subject? This is important." Nate asked Lorena as he slowly let her go.
"Sure, what do you want to talk about?" She replied whilst wiping her tears.
"Would you like to accompany me at a party this weekend?"
"Like the one we just went to? No thank you, that was too much for me."
"No, this one is different, trust me."
"I'm not sure, I'll see if I already have plans or not." She said still wiping her tears.
Nate dropped off Lorena home a few minutes after their special moment. He didn't say anything the whole ride. Lorena kept regretting everything that happened. When she got into the apartment she saw 3 boxes on her dining room table with a note.
Penny yelled from the bathroom, "Hey! Some dude dropped of these boxes for you half an hour ago!"
Violet rushes to Lorena with a big smile on her face.
"I wonder what the note says..." Violet says to Lorena in sarcastic voice.
..."For the party. Now you have no choice but to go with me. I'll pick you up at 6PM." At the end of the note he added a cute smiley face. The nervousness I was feeling didn't go away all night. I couldn't stop thinking about how I was going to do my hair and makeup. The last fancy event I went to was my cousin's wedding a year ago. I never went to prom or any of the other school dances because I was such a nobody to majority of my peers. And to the others, lets just say I literally couldn't even be in the same classroom as them for half the period.
High school was actually the worst and best four years out of all the school year for Lorena. For about a year or so, Lorena was sexually harassed by one older guy. He was her friend since junior high, then he wasn't. He explained to her that he loved her throughout her entire friendship. As he roughly stroked her thighs all the way up to her breasts, he told her that he just wants to make her happy.
This one time in class their teacher was doing a one on one test with another student he entire period. Lorena got out of her seat to sharpen her pencil. He grabbed her from behind and kept bumping her towards the desk. Hard enough to feel every bump from his jeans to the desk but quietly enough to not be heard. While he was bumping her, he slowly put his hand on hers as she was sharpening her pencil and pushed it in and out softly. She looked up at him in disgust and he just smirked.
In that moment she knew he only wanted to fuck her, not love her. She never had a boyfriend. A guy never swept her off of her feet. Sadly, she was never even given a bouquet of flowers or a simple flower to put in her hair. Her mom never got to tell the story about a boy kissing her at a inappropriate age because it never happened.
When she was younger, guys would look at her then laugh or look straight past her avoiding eye contact. As she got older, she developed a more approachable appearance due to years of braces and multiple acne clearing products. When she physically changed, some guys reacted the same and others looked at her with lust in their eyes.
No boy/man has ever genuinely looked at her and thought she was breathtaking with a beautiful soul. Lorena hopes Nate turns out to be that guy. He's the first guy to actually want to get to know her without wanting something from me or being told to have an interest in her. Honestly, she can't really explain the vibe she gets from him but she definitely wants to keep getting to know him and seeing where our relationship goes. So far she believes he's a trustworthy and reliable guy.
Her mother always told her, "You can attend a ball and dance with all of the princes there just to look for prince charming but your prince charming may not even be at the ball."
Lorena assumed she meant he wasn't looking for her. But, she actually meant her prince charming is so much more than a charming, wealthy man in a suit. For some reason, she's getting this feeling inside of her that Nate is her prince charming but then again it could be too soon to tell. Right now their little bond is enough for her to know that there is good in him so far. Her secret is killing her inside and she's unsure of how he'll react to it when she tells him.  So, she's keeping it to herself until she knows she can trust him and be safe with him.
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