I'm tired of being hurt so many times
Of feeling only pain
I'm tired of being stabbed in the heart
When your reaction is always the same
My mind feels dizzy and clouded
My heart feels bruised and cold
Why bother staying with me
When lies are all that you've told
Do you even love me?
Or do you hate me more?
I can't help but wonder
Why I still love you from my hearts core
I cut away on my arm
Letting my tears fall to the ground
I used to feel so loved and safe
But now I feel useless when you're around
I have no idea idea what to do
I have no more strength left
I feel as if I continue to love you
It will bring me to my very death
Am I not beautiful enough?
Am I really that repulsive?
When ever I ask you questions like these
You're not really responsive
Am I really the only loyal one?
Am I the only one that cares?
I feel as if you already know
That this pain is difficult to bare
My ears are ringing so much
My smile has disappeared
My heart is truly aching
Because you won't make your feelings clear
I'm the only one who is trying
I'm the one who deserves to cry
With all the pain you've put me through
All I want to do is die
-To be continued...
