To understand better what I'm feeling

You'll meet a boy who

You'll meet a boy who'll make your body shake and tell you you're beautiful at 4am and make you believe that he's merely a star while you're a galaxy and you'll believe him. You'll be in tears and unknowingly, you'll call him and he'll pick up on the first ring and you'll spit out a mix of words and tears and he'll listen. He'll swear he loves you more even though you know he isn't capable of doing so. After six months he'll tell you he loves you when he's drunk and he'll swear he means it even though he'll wake up the next day and not remember talking to you. He'll only call you when he's high and needs a ride home because he lost the keys to his car. He won't pick up his phone because he's always busy. He'll only text you to come over to his house when his parents are out and you'll go. Whenever he moves his dry lips and says he loves you with an emotionless look, you'll say you love him more. He won't argue. Before you know it, it'll be New Years and you'll have too much to drink and you'll call him up and say you still love him but he'll say
he doesn't believe in love anymore.