Jesse's Redemption (manxman /werewolf || #lgbt)

Chapter Eight

Jesse

Oh my goddess. A silverback?

That's purely legend right?

All the signs point to it being true.

And to get the point straight I do want Eric. I do. Just... I don't know..

I don't know how to tell Eric about my past. Bullying Marcellus.. My sister.. None of it.

Things at home have been different. I still find myself surprised that they're talking to me again. My mom cooking and cleaning. My dad watching wrestling and football with me. Just weird.

Zachariah's punishments have become more severe now that he's got the hang of being Alpha. The beta that kidnapped Eric and tried to rape him had a public trial. She was found guilty and sentenced to death.

Both my pack, The Mystical Blood Pack and the Berserkers, that's Zachariah's pack have joined forces so to speak. And damn... I now understand why they're the strongest and craziest pack, though being one of the smallest. Their training is fucking hell.

Shit, their pups could fight like fucking soldiers. Both in human and beast form. We had to learn how to fight blind, handicapped and with weapons, guns and knives.

Eric's presence has every one jittery. Wondering when this big war would happen.

Eric's pretty excited about Christmas. The packs are coming together for that too. My mom got him in on the decorations of the house, let's just leave it at chaos. You could probably see my house from Mars.

I just sat, ate cookie dough and watched Eric string even more lights onto the tree. Jesus, he could blind someone if they stare too long.

"Jesse, can we talk outside?" my dad asks, well he demanded ok? I just nodded and followed him outside.

"son, I am not assuming to know what's going on in that big head of yours but I'm curious as to why you haven't mated Eric yet" he asked taking a seat on the steps and patting the spot next to him.

I sat, silent. Didn't know what to say to him.

"where did we go wrong? Your mom and I?" he dips his head and shook it.

"dad, it's not your fault or mom's fault I was a shitty kid. I was always bigger and stronger than most of the pups. Then came football. I don't know, I guess it just got to my head. And sissy just got caught up in it. I didn't... Couldn't have imagined my behaviour would have that effect on her" I placed my hand on his shoulder willing him to not blame himself for my short comings.

"I am trying though. To be a better person. Someone you guys would be proud of. Eric, our pack, my co-workers. I just don't know how to face Eric with my past" he places his big hand over mine.

"son, do you want Eric as your mate?"

"yea.. I do. He's just so.. " I smiled to myself. I don't know how to describe him. Adorable, cute, beautiful, sexy, I could go on and on.

" Jesse, you have to stop running. Everyone knows about what happened to our family. Everyone sees the changes you've made and we are all proud of you. Your mom and I already love Eric and consider him part of the family. It's all up to you now" I nodded knowing he won't see it. I went back inside and watched Eric dance to Justin Beiber's Under The Mistletoe.

"hey Eric. Come with me?" I stretched my hand out waiting for him to take it. He smiled that megawatt smile, brighter than all the lights he strung up on the tree.

I guide him out to one of my favorite spots. It was a little clearing that had a bunch of flowers growing wildly in all colors. I love how it smells here.

"wow, it's so pretty" Eric murmured looking around. I smiled at him and pulled him down with me in the middle of it.
"Eric, do you understand what being my mate means?" I asked picking a red flower and handing it to him.

"yes, Marcellus explained it to me. Your mate is your other half. The person who's going to love you no matter what. They'll protect you and defend you. Be your best friend and um.. Your lover" he blushes at the last word, sniffing the flower I gave him.

"yea. Eric, I have some things to tell you about me and I don't know if you'll still want to be my mate after you hear them" I mumbled.

"I could never hate you Jesse. I love you" he says with so much innocence shining from his eyes.

"baby, remember what my parents told you about my sister, about her killing herself?" I asked trying to use phrases he would understand. He nodded.

"well, my sister did that because of me. When I was in school I used to be a naughty boy. I used to hurt people because they're different. I used to beat up Marcellus and a few other kids. I used to say hurtful things to them. Mainly about being gay" I bury my face in his neck when his entire body stiffened upon mention of me Bullying Marcellus.

"my sister found her mate and it was a girl. I didn't know. I came home with a bunch of my friends and we were laughing and talking about gay people. How disgusting they were and a bunch of other stuff. My sister was doing her applications for college, she heard everything. That.. That same night s-she killed herself" I cried, silent tears wetting Eric's shoulder. Remembering what her note said. My parents reaction. My schoolmates, teachers, elders in the pack. The whispers.

Eric didn't say anything for a while. Just the gentle breeze blowing and rustling leaves. Birds chirping.

"you don't do that anymore right?" Eric turns to face me.

"no. I work as a Anti-Bullying Ambassador. I try to help kids like me. Help the ones that get hurt because of them" I lowered my eyes. Couldn't bear to look at him. Disappointment, disgust.

"well that's all that matters" he places his hands on either sides of my face and forces me to look at him.

My breath caught. He was looking at me with so much love, pride. "I still love you. I'll always love you, because you changed and help people now" he kissed my nose.

"so you'll mate me?" I asked looking into his innocent eyes, making sure that there's no doubt or fear.

"yes! But I want a Christmas mating" he threw himself at me. I chuckled at his excitement. We laid in the little field of flowers just enjoying the quiet.

"what's going to happen Jesse? With the war? How long till my wolf returns?" he asks softly. I could hear the fear in his voice.

"I don't know baby. But I'll protect you" I swore to him.

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Sorry guys! Couldn't update yesterday. Went Christmas shopping with my moms.

Here's another chapter hope you enjoy.