Ever Since That Day

Chapter Two

"People will notice the change
In your attitude towards them
But won't notice their behavior
That made you change. "

**

It's been a week since the Dawsons came back and it makes me feel uncomfortable.  Actually, i've always have nightmares i called. I always remember that day that all things have changed. It ruined my life which made me like this now. I don't want to go back to my old self because it doesn't make me feel better.

For a week, Kurt always throws a rock at ny window and would say, good morning or good night or just say hi or hello. I still don't care. Besides, it's like  payback time of what he did to me. I don't want to remember it.

I've finished my shower and now brushing my hair. It's pitch black , like my eyes. I see myself in the mirror that a black aura surrounds me. I saw a picture of me beside my mirror in my study table. There's a huge difference. My hair is still pitch black and my eyes too but my smile really change.

I heard a noise downstairs. I think it is my dad cooking anything that I think still edible.  I heard my dad call my name . I immediately go downstairs to check what he needs.

To my surprise, I saw Kurt wearing casual clothes with his famous smile, a smile that extends to his eyes.  He's holding an envelope.

"Saila, can you accompany Kurt to your school? He's now in senior high right? " my dad really doesn't help me either.

He knows that I hate people especially this person in front of me. My father looks at me like he's pushing me to agree on what he asked. I turned to look at Kurt who's now waiting for my answer.

"I think my stomach hurts? " I lied.

"Really? If that's the case, you can't eat the ice cream i bought earlier and also the 2 boxes of hawaiian pizza in the fridge?"  Really Dad? you're so mean.

"You're so mean dad. " I looked pissed right now.

"What? I just bought your favorite food and i'm the one who's mean now? " my father is the meanest. He knows how to trick me.

"Oh-kay, i'll go change. " I go to my room . It's not like i want to be with Kurt. It's the food that make me say yes.

"I'm ready. " I just changed my shirt and put on a blazer and most especially, put on my headphones.

I go straight out of the house after I bid my goodbye to my dad. Kurt is now walking at my sides.

"You don't really miss me, do you? " he asked me. There's no music playing so i can hear him but I just ignored him.

"Hey , Sai! "
"Why do you keep on ignoring me? "

I don't care as if I'm just walking alone in the streets. We're living in a subdivision so people here are nice. We turn right and only a few blocks were our school, it's a university inside a subdivision.

I stopped walking when he stopped in front of me. He took of my headphones and hold my shoulders looking serious and said,

"Please stop ignoring me. "

***

"I'm not ignoring you. I just can't hear you because of the music. " that's what I told him. After that, he didn't talk to me. He just continued walking as I lead the way to school.

We have finally arrived and I told him the directions to the admission building. He said, "You know that I'm terrible workimg with directions. "  I know, so I end up accompanying him again.

He finished earlier than the usual time when I it is the start of the enrollment.  Maybe because he's already late or the employee entertains him first. Whatever the reason is, I'm glad I'm going home earlier.

" Did you got bored? " he asked while we're heading out of the building.

"Not really. " he just nodded. While we're walking, I heard someone calling Kurt from behind. And I am lying to myself if I pretend I didn't know her.

"Hey! How've you been? " she asks.

"I'm good Belle. Saila's good too, I guess.  What about you?  "    i'm good ? Really ? They both look at me. I turn around to pretend that I'm ignoring their conversation.

"Fine too. It's kinda weird that she's with you. " Yeah, it's really weird.

"What do you mean? You're her best friend right? "

"She was. " i told them and already started walking home.

***

Maybelle Collins was my bestfriend from Grade 5 up to Grade 8 but then, she broke her ultimate promise that neither of us wouldn't have any boyfriend but she chose her boyfriend over me and that left me with no one.

I came home earlier and started to eat my food in the living room. My father even asked my why Kurt didn't dropped by for food. I just told him , that he says he need to do something which is half-meant true because he's talking to Belle.

My dad and I were eating my favorite food in our living room. It's 6 o'clock in the evening . We were watching a koreanovela.  It serves as our bonding time together. We are so into the show when the phone rang.

My dad who is near to the telephone answered it. I know who it is.

"Hello Sonja? , Yes, Saila's here. " my dad gave phone to me.

"Hi, what do you need? " i said in my most bored tone.

"Is that how you greet your mother? Is that how your father teach you? To be reckless?  "

"Did you call just to nag at me? " i feel irritated. She's always like this, blaming dad for all reasons.

"No, how have you been these days? I heard that the Dawsons are back again. Are you alright? " mom is just so bipolar.

"I'm perfectly fine. Don't worry about me. "

"Good, we'll hang out some time, i'm having an early dinner with Harris, " and i heard a 'hello'

"No thanks mom, by the way, thank you for my tuition. "

"Okay sweety, love you. " i ended the phone call. It's not like i am being rude again but my father is beside me.

I turned to look at dad, " Dad, are you and mom okay? "
" I guess, " not looking at me while he eats his slice of pizza.

" Okay " but at the back of my mind, i'm not okay with it.

How I wish, my family would be complete again just like before. How I wish my bestfriend, Belle and I would be bestfriends again. Lastly, I hope Kurt would be fine with me too. I guess it is really hard to forget the things that always reminds you how painful it is.

It's necessary for you to just accept the fact that it is already done than making an effort to prevent it from happening because its the present time that matters.

Because it's never gonna hurt in the end if none of them matters.