Kat's poems.

12/4/15

12/4/15

I hope you know that I can see the truth when you say I'm fine

I hope that there's a chance that you can trust me enough to say what's wrong.

I wished that you could see it in my eyes

I cant live to see you fall.

I love you but you think I don't

Why cant you see my heart is always going to be yours

And I cry when you break my heart with other girls.

It doesn't seem to matter that I love you so.

And ill be gone within 8 hours so please don't worry

As I fall into eternal sleep you'll be home unaware that im ending my life

So I wait till school is out and let you read this online as im fading away

You just might sae me but mostly you've destroyed me

And you don't know your partly why im falling to pieces

I need you love like a boy needs his mothers side.

But you don't love me back so whats the point

And yeah I pretend like everything is fine but its really not

I hate the way your eyes are so blue

I hate the way your hair sticks up perfectly messy

I hate the fact that I cant go without you

But mostly....

I hate the fact that I don't hate you...not one little bit.

I hope you get the drawing I made for you

Read it through and please don't cry

For its not your fault what I'm about to do.

This was my decision and I went through with it.

Maybe you'll realize what I'm talking about as you read this but maybe you wont

Maybe you'll get the point and message me or try to stop me.

I might not know

As im writing this to say my goodbye

I have to tell you something

Nyel please don't give up don't forget your promise.

Stay strong

There are people here for you who love you so much

But don't forget about me either

I was always there for you when you needed it

But sometimes theres no winning against this war

Ive been drowning so long I forgot what breathing is like.

You have your whole life ahead of you so don't let that go

Im telling you this as I fall apart for the last time

Maybe you'll never see me again but maybe you will.

Only time will tell.

Im the girl talking everyone out of suicide but cant do it for herself

Im the girl with a broken heart inside

I gave it to someone but they threw it on the round and stomped on it till it was in a million different pieces.

So long and good bye.

Live your dreams out as I die in mine

Stay strong my friend

Ill see you again one of these days

When your time has come ill bring you with me to haunt the ones who hurt us most.

We can scare them witless into the night