Use Me

Bad For You

Jordyn.

I laid on the bed as Chris pulled out of me. We just finished another round of mind blowing sex. It's been 2 months since our first time I swear it gets better and better. I sat up and grabbed a cig of my dresser. Chris sat up and eyed me. I lit it and took a pull. He made a face.

"That's so bad for you." He said getting out the bed and pulling on his boxers.

"A lot of things are bad for you...Should we just stop living?" I said. He sat on the bed and pulled me on his lap. I blew in his face. He squeezed my leg. I looked at the end of the cigarette. His wrist was laying on my lap. I placed it on his wrist. He jumped at first then relaxed. I pulled it off and looked at his burning flesh. I turned to him. His facial expression was nothing. I kissed his lips.

"Did that hurt?" I said. He shook his head no.

"It surprised me that's all."

"You let me burn you last time too.....why?" I said looking at him.

"Did it make you happy?" He said.

"A little." I said. He placed his face in my neck. My phone went off. I knew it was Marcus.

"Yo. "I said answering and getting off of Chris. He slapped my ass. I smiled.

"Open your door dummy. "Marcus said. I looked around. I hung up the phone throwing Chris clothes at him. I didn't want people to know I was fucking at boy. I mean he was 19 and I was only 22.It just still felt weird. Plus it was just sex with us. No feelings involved he was a boy and my heart belonged to someone else. that someone from the coffee shop. I've gone to that shop everyday for the past 2 months hoping to see him again. no luck. But I won't give up that easily. Chris finished putting on his clothes.

"Boyfriend? "He said leaning on the door.

"He's not."

"If it's just sex between us why do you hid it. You won't let me take you out....You don't even want to be in public with me. "He said.

"Chris."

"I'm 19 not 15...Respect me as an adult."

"You're not an adult technically." I said laughing. He rolled his eyes.

"Whatever this shit is getting old bye. "He said slamming my bedroom door. I shrugged. There was nothing to be mad about. I pulled on my robe and went to open the door for Marcus.

"What was youngin doing here?" He said walking in.

"Came for sugar."

"What kinda sugar "He said eyeing me. I rolled my eyes.

"Not like that."

"Hey you should invite him out with us."

"You have to be 21 to get in. "I said.

"He looks 21 I'll get him in."

"I'm sure he's busy with his classes." I said walking to my room.

"Ha look at you knowing his schedule and shit."

"Shut up Marcus." I said slamming my door. Nothing but sex...That's all I wanted from men. No love lost. No love found. Use them the way they used me.

Chris

I stepped out the apartment. after getting showered and dressed. i looked down at my phone and back up when I walked by Jordyn's. I don't even know what I was doing with her. I was suppose to try and get Maria back but I been messing with Jordyn for 2 months now. IT was the same shit. She call me. I fuck her. I leave then we do it again the next day. I wasn't complaining. The sex was bomb. I loved every bit of it. I guess I wanted more from her. She's hiding shit from me. Hell she's hiding me. I guess my age bothers her. I wasn't a fuckign child an dI needed her to get that through her fucking head. My phone vibrated.