Transparent

Chapter 7

This is a picture of Jason at  the top.

The next morning, Mom told me about the conservation she had with Mrs. Brown.  Mom knew I didn't hear a word she said yesterday, call it mother's intuition.   God I hope she has a off switch.  Because I was doing the thing most teenage do around the world right now.  Pretend to listen while my minds wander.   It's not like I wasn't glad mom sounded so happy, I was.  I promise.  I just had a lot on my mind.

But my ear perks up when I hear Jason name and I tune into the conservation.

"I'm glad Jason seems so happy yesterday"  That must have been before I came home."Especially after that nasty breakup?" 

"Breakup,"I asked surprised.  "What do you mean Jason got dumped?" 

"Oh right, I forgot to tell you.  Just like I forgot to  tell you that they move here.  Anyway-"

"Hold up they move here.  I thought they were just visiting"

"No they here to stay,"  she said happily.  "Isn't that great?"

"Yes,"  I said out loud.  This is going to be my worst summer ever.  

" Anyway, Jason caught his girlfriend cheating on him with another man.  In his house.  If I was him, I would have slapped her.  And it's only been a week  after this happen so he a little depress"  "It kind of like  your breakup with that asshole"  My mom only cuss when she mad.  I remember she was madder than I was when she found out Daerion cheated on me.  I thought she would come to his home and threaten him with a gun.  Which would have been funny as hell.

"Yeah kind of"  In fact, it exactly alike.

Later when we move, I was still a little sore after the breakup.  Well more than sore.  I put up a calm front, but inside I was pissed beyond belief.  Which cause me to push people away, my mom too.  I still feel guilty by how bad I treated mom.  She was only trying to help.  And what make me feel more guilty is how fast she forgave me.  

"...Mom, where do they live?"

"They live right next door just like last time"

"Okay, I'll be right back"

After I put a t-shirt and jeans on, I walk next door to Jason house and knock on the door.  The house was painted green and very well kept.  The main reason our old neighbor  was such a perfectionist .  He was a  white man in his 40 who love to see everything looking just perfect. People too.  I can't count how many time he would lecture me  trying  me change into some acceptable clothes.   I really didn't see why he would pick on me, it wasn't like I would walk out the house looking like a slut.  So I didn't shed a tear when he  left a few months ago.

Jason opens the door, not looking happy to see me.  

"What do you want?," Jason growled.  Okay, he obviously wasn't a morning person.

"I just want to talk.  That's all.  I promise"

He pause.  Then he moves aside allowing me to walk in his house.  Jason shut the door behind him slowly.   Maybe his mom was still sleeping or something?

"...Okay, what do you want to talk about?"

"I'm sorry,"  I heard if the expression, mouth drop open in shock.  But I never saw it before  today.  His eye scream"Who the hell are you?" and "Are you for real?"

"Really.  I'm sorry.  I took my angry out on you"

"I'm sorry too," Jason said generously sounding sincere.  "I shouldn't have called you a whore...Forgive me,"

Jason runs his hand through his jet black hair.  And at this moment, I take a good look at what he were wearing.  Black pajamas and his hair was a mess.  Not like I can say shit.  I don't look any better.   I don't think I even comb my hair before  I left.  

"On by the way I really am sorry.  But I came him to threaten you a little too"  Without a doubt, I had a evil look in my eyes.  Now I threaten him a bunch of time while growing up, he never listens to not one of my threats.  Now I'm a sixteen sarcastic girl who can kick anybody's ass.  I could make him listen.  And I know he said he was sorry, but I have to make sure he sticks to his apology.

"Don't you ever call me a slut again.  If you do, I can do thing you don't even see in your worst nightmare.  I could kill you in many ways, then hide your body.  Okay?"  

"Okay.  "You know you very scary when you angry" he said in a half joking way

"Aren't all girl scary when angry?" I said in the same joking way.  Women equal anger equal man equal woman get a ton of presents to calm her down.

"Touche,"  This is the first time that we ever have an conservation without wanting to scratch each other eye out.  We were just two normal people having a conservation.  I feel like I'm in the  Twilight Zone, making this the weirdest day of my life.  For someone like me, trust me that a shocker.

"I have to leave before this get any weirder?" I thought.

"I should get going,"  I saw an emotion flash in his eyes.

Disappointment?...Nah.  Just because we are getting along now, doesn't mean it's going to stop years of hate.  Or maybe Jason lonely and need company beside his mom?  Then again, he was mean to me a lot when we were kids.  So I shouldn't care right?  Right?... Damn it!!.  Why the fuck do I have a  conscience?

Right you know you are going crazy when you having a conversation with yourself.

"You know what, never mind.  It not like I have anything better to do?"  It the complete truth.  I'm not saying it to be nice at all.

Jason looks at me intensely, it almost makes me blush.  Almost.  And it wasn't like I like him or anything. I always blush when someone looks at me intensely.  I know it sound like bullshit, but it's the truth.  Whenever someone looks at me, I get really flustered.  That one of the reasons I hate when guys flirt with me because I get even more flustered.  It not very well known because I don't get stared at or flirt with  often.  It's a secret, an embarrassing secret.   A secret I'm taking to my grave.  Or whoever who reveals my secret to their grave.  Is it bad that I'm being completely serious?