Transparent

Chapter 13

The next day, I awake up about 11:00 am.  I walk inside mom's room who in a deep sleep.   I shake my mom, trying to wake her up.    I knew she had work yesterday, but it wasn't  healthy to sleep all day.    God, I was starting to sound like Jason.

 Mom jerks up, almost hitting me in the forehead.  "Huh?  What you doing up so early?"

"Trying to wake you up without getting hurt. Come on, it's time to get up"

"Okay sweetie,"she said with a yawn.  Getting off the bed, she slip on her red slippers.  I walk down the stairs together with mom.  Mom cook breakfast:pancakes and sausage.

It didn't take long before breakfast is ready.  Mom place  two pancakes and a sausages on a plate just for me.  I thank mom, sit down at the table, and tore into my food.  Mom fixes herself three pancakes and two sausages.  I got my hungriness from her.   Mom sits down right across me and begin to eat.

"Anera?"

"Yes mom?"

"I'm so glad,"mom said happily.

"About what?"

"You seem more happy since you start hanging out with Jason, Anera.  You smile more.  More than you smile with your old boyfriend  that for sure.  You just seem so happy"

"I am happy, mom"

I saw a look flash in mom's eyes.  Uh Oh.  That was the look mom got when she wanted to ask me something.  "Anera..." Here we go.  "Do you possibly have anything romantic feeling for...Jason?"

No.  You would think I would though.  Because in every romance story the boy helps the guy in some way.  And they fall in love.  Life work differently.  I don't need a lover right now.  I need a friend... Beside what is love anyway?"

"You asking that question because you say your ex boyfriend about a week ago"

My mouth fall open.  If I was drinking something  right now I swear,  I would have spit it out.  "How?," I manage to choke out.  

She doesn't answer.  All she does is smile mysteriously.  "I have my way, Anera"

See, I was right.  My mom defense system is almost never off.  Thank God, I didn't let Jason into my room last night.  Or I would have been screwed.

"Sorry for not telling you.  I just..got caught up"

"It okay.  I'm not bad.  So you want to know what love is?"  I was just just asking that out loud.  I didn't expect a question.  But...who else would give me wisdom than my mom.  I nodded.

"Love is like flipping a coin, Anera.  Flip one way you get to fly.  Flip another way you get to drown.  And it all decide by the hand  you dealt.  Love is not easy at all.  One day you can wake up where everything fine, the next day everything falling apart"

"Do you think true love exist, mom?"

Mom think of her answer . "I don't know, Anera.  If it does, it very hard to find"  Mom look at me, love in her eyes.  "Anera, sweetie I was so proud when you fell in love with Daerion"

"Proud?,"I asked.

"You fell in love with him with hesitance.  Even though he ends up breaking your heart.  You so brave.  But Anera sweetie, it doesn't matter if true love exist or not, there nothing you can't find in yourself that wasn't already there.  Don't be the girl who look for her prince charming.  Be the girl who walks with her own footsteps.  Do you understand, Anera?"