Yes Mr.Styles? (Narry Boyxboy)

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I stayed after class, and to say I was scared, was a underestimate, I was fucking terrified, what did he want from me? was he going to yell at me? am I going to get in trouble? so many questions flooded my mind and I didn't know what to think..

            Mr.Styles, just kinda sat there for a few moments and stared at me, creepy I thought, but why was he staring at me? I'm not the best thing in this entire world to look at, I'm pale, my blonde hair sticks up everywhere, my baggy hoodie, my gray sweats, and my converse, nope defiantly not the best thing to be looking at.
             After I finally stopped thinking about all the "negative" things about me, I finally spoke up,
          "Mr.Styles, Why am I here?" it came out more as a whisper, but he still heard me.
           He didn't respond right away, but finally he broke his state, cleared his throat and said,
             "Niall, you need to start paying attention in my class more, your usually a good student, but here recently you've seemed a bit off, is everything okay?"
you could hear a hint of sadness in his voice. :(
How do I respond to that? I can't let him know about my home life or anything, he'll call mom (which she wouldn't care), he'll call the law, mom and dad will be taken away (the doesn't sound too bad), I can't tell him about how I cut myself, or how I starve myself, or how I'm constantly hold a lighter to my thighs, I just can't let him know. I must of been crying or something, I didn't really notice it until I felt a tear hit my arm. See! look I'm a big fucking baby! Now Mr.Styles is for sure going to hate me!
               "Niall?" I looked up and he was magically standing in front of me, how did he get there that fast...
              "Niall, are you okay? why are you crying?"
                   all I could do is shake my head and cry more.. should I tell him? does he deserve to know? After about 5 minuets or so of having a mental argument with myself, I started to speak,
                   "No Mr.Styles, everything is not okay, it's never going to be okay, there is so much stuff going on, and I don't know what anyone expects from me, I have no friends, well besides Zayn, and Lou, those are the only two I have, Liam fucking Payne, bullies me every damn day, he shoves me down, kicks me, calls me names, and I have never once done anything to him! I wanna fucking die, I want to die, but then again I don't want to die, Yano? I hate this place called Earth, it's horrible and lifeless, why do I have to be here? oh, and don't let me forget, I have the biggest damn crush on someone I don't stand any damn chance with." It all came out rushed, if he heard any of it or not, I have no idea.
         I look up and he just staring at me, with his mouth opened slightly, and tears in his eyes, threatening to fall, oh great! I made my damn teacher cry. what is wrong with me? finally after a few moments, I hear him clear is throat and he speaks up,
                "Niall, I'm going to help you okay? no matter what, you can rely on me, I know I'm not supposed to do this, but if you ever and I mean ever, need a place to stay, my door is always open to you, I'll even give you private tutor lessons, I'll let you stay after class, anything to help you Niall, you need food, hey tell me, I'll get you some, you need clothes, tell me, I'll help you out the best that I can, you need school supplies, hey, lemme know, I'll get them, you need a shoulder to lean on so you can cry, hey I got two of them, pick one, you need a hug, hey I heard my hugs are quiet amazing, you need someone to talk to at 3am, hey, I'm awake anytime for you, Niall, anything you need at all, I can promise you I'm here, don't be ashamed or shy to ask me for anything, okay?"
                      "yes mr.styles, and thank you, so much for saying all of that, it's been a while since someone had showed me that they care about me."
I can almost promise you that I smiled the whole time while replying to him.
                  "okay, Niall, I should be going, school ended 45 minuets ago, and I need to head home, shower, eat, and grade papers, have a nice night Niall, I'll see you tomorrow" he said with a slim smile that I adored so much.
        I gave him a small wave when we walked out the front doors of the school, I headed one direction, he headed the other, and when he separated, that's when I felt alone again, I'm not looking for tonight at home, I'm not ready to walk through those doors, it could be bad, guess we'll have to find out.
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Authors note!
I'm pretty much devoting all my time this weekend to work on this story, I'm really excited too see how it's going to turn out, I hope you guys enjoy it
with lots of love
~sadness 😊