Can't Sleep

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Dark, cold. The ceiling is gone. Everything is black. A hole of nothingness. My life in one word. No. Many words are to describe what I am about. I am not just a sad pathetic excuse for a human.

It's always my fault isn't it?
Yes, it is IT.
Why can I not have a better name.
Cause your not human
True...

Silence draws back in. IT has left me once again. Many people have escaped this asylum. But me... I have stayed. Give me a straight jacket so I can go insane. Too late, I already have.

Talking to a voice in my head. What could be worse. IT having a form that follows. I image the terrible of it all, and I am glad I am what I am.

Wet hair and cold nights. They don't need to go together. Yet, my late night stay wakes have made me do otherwise.

I lay in my bed, freezing, when I finally decide to get up. Who cares if the heater goes up. Blame it on the third. He is always into trouble. Time to make more, so I do.

I can feel the heat rising. It's a good feeling. It makes me smile. An expression so taboo I like it. I don't stop and suddenly frighten that my face will be stuck. But it is not.

My eyes begin to close and I stop caring. The dark is inviting. I am no longer cold and so I drift. Somewhere deep in my thoughts. A happy place filled with candy and love.

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