I mentioned it in another article, but I'm going to go a bit more in depth. People tell me I'm pretty. People tell me I'm not fat. People compliment my singing, outfits, hair, makeup etc... But then again, there are people who tell me the exact opposite. I have had people tell me how fat and ugly I am. I have had people making fun of my clothes because I can't afford designer brands. I have actually had people tell me that everyone would be better off if I killed myself. Now, yeah, I could have just walked away like BYE FELICIA, but I listened. I believed them. That's what made it a problem. People tell me that it doesn't matter, and that I'm fabulous and I shouldn't worry about those other people, and I try. I try SO hard but it just doesn't work. I would give anything to be that one girl who loves herself and won't let anyone get her down. I hate myself now though, and I can't change it. I don't even know... Maybe it's my ugly ass face, fat body, and annoying personality. And all this self hatred along with family problems and other things broke me, and I'm not going to be fixed anytime soon. I'm not writing this for comfort or attention, I am genuinely telling the truth and I am just done lying to people. I hope this doesn't change your view of me... After all I'm still Sam. Okay, well talk to you later! Bye!!!
