I don't really know how I feel about posting this one. I just need to confess a little bit here so that you guys really know who I am and what you are getting yourself into with me.
I pretend a lot basically, the shit I have gone through really messed me up inside. I really was one of the happiest girls ever... But now I don't know. I have slipped in and out of depression for a couple years now. Everyone tells me it's a phase. It's no big secret that I used to um..... Well yeah.... Cut myself.... I guess I have kinda gotten over it, but between my fucked up dysfunctional family, my own problems, friends I can't trust, and other shit I dont wanna go into... Sometimes I lose it. I'm not saying that I hate my whole life, because that is not true. I understand that it gets better, or else I probably wouldn't be here.
I understand that there are a lot of people who don't have what I have, who don't even have clean water.... And I understand how selfish I am to be a self harmer and everything... I don't know. I just really don't like myself. The thing that keeps me content is that I help as much as I can. I donate money to charity if my family can bring together a little extra, I run events to help people in need, I help out in Girl Scouts, I give back, and I hope that that is enough to make up for everything. What makes me happy is that I fell like I am a nice person. I really love to help others, but the question is, how can I help myself? Well, don't worry because I'm getting better, I'm just letting you know why I'm a fucked up human with a fucked up life. Thanks for listening. Well bye!!!!!
PS: I'm fine most of the time, and I'm already getting help so don't worry about it! It's gonna all work out!
Love you all! Stay beautiful!
-Sam 😜😜😜
